hi omni,thanks for ur support.I know that relationship is the success factor of human being as well self confidence.But my depressed,shy,childish,suicidal mental have been accumulated since I was ten year old (20 years ago),when this disease started.I have try to change my mentality,but it's so hard because beside this strange disease embarass me,it also worsens gradually by hurting constantly (almost no day without hurt).