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- Blazng a new trail26 mon
- pros n cons
How incredible things can change in a short period of time.
Since I last wrote (about 2 months ago), the following has happened:
1. I knew that I had finally reached breaking point and I had to halt my destructive lifestyle. (I was at the brink of self-medication and warned a school friend and admitted aloud amid tears that I knew either medicine was going to blow up in my face or I was going to die under the pressure I was under)
2.I and my school agreed that it was time to exit the university/ medical school in Singapore. I am no longer a university student nor a medical student.
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- andre26 mon
- I am going to keep fighting my illness and after effects of trauma the next few weeks, if not for myself, it will be dedicated to Andre.
I had no idea I had already fallen in love. Man, my life problems has preoccupied me far too much.
I met him because he was persistent.
I was first interested because he was so sincere.
I loved him because of his natural effervescence and balanced attitude towards life and work.
I was most endeared to him when I discovered how politically mature he is.
I had my first epiphany when I realized he was a combination of everything I loved about my first and second loves and even more.
I had my second epiphany when I realized he owns the title as my modern day Prince Charming/ knight in ... read more
- andre26 mon
- I am going to keep fighting my illness and after effects of trauma the next few weeks, if not for myself, it will be dedicated to Andre.
I had no idea I had already fallen in love. Man, my life problems has preoccupied me far too much.
I met him because he was persistent.
I was first interested because he was so sincere.
I loved him because of his natural effervescence and balanced attitude towards life and work.
I was most endeared to him when I discovered how politically mature he is.
I had my first epiphany when I realized he was a combination of everything I loved about my first and second loves and even more.
I had my second epiphany when I realized he owns the title as my modern day Prince Charming/ knight in ... read more
- Restart26 mon
- 25th april 2011
I am going to start my blog again for good now, to record my transitory period. I am going to write about self-love, my fasting journey, self-growth and new love. visit the page
- Week 7 into 2011 Progress Report28 mon
- Words that help to get me through difficult moments
A lot has happened the last few weeks, which has left me in a tailspin. I have a lot to think about.
One of the greatest moments was to learn about how a great doctor friend of mine mustered up courage after two shatteirng divorces to rebuild his prestigious career. One of my greatest problems for the last few years was to find someone whom I could relate to and who would serve to be a model of inspiration for me. Just today I was penning an introductory email to a doctor where I had to put in my resume. I think I am beginning to be able to articulate coherently why I have been paralyze ... read more
- 4th week of 2011 progress report28 mon
- Why not dive in and live?
Why are you hesitating?
your life has already hit rock bottom. the only left that it can go is up. you have learnt to set up boundaries from the various bad experiences you have had to suffer through. yet one of the continuing repurcussions is the fear to move forward. But my question to your hesitation is why not just go for it? you already know when to stop, what not to accept and, shit has alreay happened and one day your life will end. So why not just dive in and live? Why are you hesitating?
When I meet the right guy, I will treasure him and make him know how special he ... read more
- 3rd week of 2011 progress review29 mon
- Jump into the middle of things, get your hands dirty, fall flat on your face, and then reach for the stars.--Ben Stein
GM, Paeds (Main textbooks)
Revision notes (usually 2 sources)
Mindmaps (self)
Case studies--also take note of how clinical findings are presented and how to use technical language
Assessments ie Pre-test
b)Clinical skill:
Watch physical exam videos everyday or every other day
Practise each skill at least 10 times
Watch others conduct PE
5. With the experience of the last 24 years, I am more mature, self-aware and focused than I have ever been before. I know what I want and I am going to chase after them. My first priority is to keep myself at my best, with minimal intrusion or ... read more
- Waiting outside the line29 mon
- greyson chance
You’ll never enjoy your life,
living inside the box
You’re so afraid of taking chances,
how you gonna reach the top?
Rules and regulations,
force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation,
it’s time for you to seize the day
Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now
I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Try to have no regrets
even if it’s just tonight
How you gonna walk ahead
if you keep living b ... read more
- Week 2 of 201129 mon
- The importance of a gladiator attitude
The major take-home message for the week is how a positive smart even gladiator-like attitude can bring some balance to this otherwise fickle and stressful life. And my resolution for 2011 is to be less critical of myself, appreciate any activity by practising meditative envisioning and welcome each day with a big animated hello and end it with a nice bow and a card that says ”I think you were pretty awesome today.” Most importantly, to fight on fearlessly, studying my opponents and finding his weaknesses and maximizing my strengths. After all, I want to be the last one standing when this ... read more
- Future plans for medicine--perhaps?29 mon
- Life grows like coins in a piggy bank. Cheers to my journey to the summit!! No quitting now.
Charlie from Two & a half men once said ”There are no bad idea! Juz lack of a will to execute them! We are men, Alan, single men. We can go where we want, when we want and how we want. Usually without so much lugguage and toileteries, but I’m trying to be flexible here... the point is you can’t let your ex-wife control your behaviour no matter how stupid & self-destrutive it might be! ... What profit a man if you escape from the iron shack of matrimony, only to surrender to your sexually frustrated tyranny of vengeful ex-wife?”
Well, I have no pissed off ex-wife thank god, but now that ... read more
- 25th Birthday ideas29 mon
- :)
* Visit the zoo
* Eat Ben and Jerry’s cheese and strawberry ice-cream
* Visit a jazz bar
* Exotic foodfare with medical peers
--intestines, liver, feet etc
* Travel Koh Phi Phi and Phuket
-- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ESldStIKh6Q
visit the page
- Week 1 of 2011 progress-- Letter to the "Devil" side of me29 mon
- f*** off
To “Devil” side of me,
Why do you always find ways to bully and torment me? Why do you enjoy tearing me down and diminishing ever slight achievement I make? Why do you find joy in gloating at my misery or your ceaseless pursuit at making me feel miserable?
I know you are the summation of my parents’ personalities. From young, they ace at making every event, big or small, taste like vomit--exactly what you do. It did not matter how hard I try or how well I do, I was never good enough; in fact I was completely lousy and useless. I was often compared to kids of strangers and thrashed fo ... read more
- Week 1 of 2011 progress report29 mon
- performance at school, meeting with cardiologist, problems I encountered
Ever since I emerged from my grieving period, there has definitely been positive progress. In the first week of school, I have never missed a day’s attendance. I have been asking questions and jotting notes to gain thorough knowledge of each learning point. This is a drastic improvement from my performance a few months ago where I could not even bring myself to the hospital, let alone concentrate.
At the end of the week, I also managed to attend the meeting with interventional cardiologist Dr Foo about the prospects of cardiology research with the hospital. It was a fruitful first meet ... read more
- Happy 201129 mon
- :)
the extraordinary girl who has the last laugh. I know I have the strength and the tenacity to turn my life around and construct a new, extraordinary life for me.
And what better way to kick off this year with a really great first day? I went shopping and found the amazing scarves and swimwear and laughed till my tummy heart watching Two & a half Men. It was a kickass day!!
To 2011, Cheers.
Lots of love
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- Surviving the hard times30 mon
- with quotes about being strong
http://help.com/post/65405-whoa-i-just-read-your-profile-and
let me ask you a question.
have you ever seen someone in there 30’s or 40’s that just look beat down. lets say a woman. you can tell she used to be pretty, and if you talk to her she seems smart, but she is a sad, sad person. maybe she has a drug problem, or drinks too much, or slleps around. but this is not where her problems started.
her problems started when she was young, she was a victim of her surrondings, and people in her life. at some point she just accepted it, and became a proffesional victim. and her life w ... read more
- What the heck is the meaning of this life?30 mon
- This life is yours. Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well. Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly. Take the power to walk in the forest and be a part of nature. Take the power to control your own life. No one else can do it for you. Take the power to make your life happy.”- Susan Polis Schutz
OK, I get it. Life sucks, so I am told--by e-v-e-r-y-b-o-d-y. You wake up everyday, silence the alarm clock then amble the toilet only to see a vaguely recognizable image starring back at you from the mirror. You get dressed because you want the image-centered world you live in to deem you as being sufficiently presentable--after all the wounds of being left out by playmates as a kid are still fresh. You hurry the kids into the car but they test your patience (because that is what they do best). You drop them off, then grab a quick-to-go breakfast that you know is sure to put you a fast tr ... read more
- Ideas for New Year 201130 mon
- Whatever your heart desires, dream them up in your mind. Don't let them go, my lovely child because they are what make you come alive. Go out and make them all come true. Don't you ever quit and darling, have the best time doing it! Write an extraordinary story, my darling girl. La Vie Extraordinare. Je'taime.
Movie- Tangled!!!!!!!!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pyOyBVXDJ9Q
Movie-Going the distance
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1HGDx2cAdMo
Movie-Life as we know it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mqzjDrrZIdE&feature=fvsr
Watch the sunrise at the airport
Study--orthopaedics visit the page
- Good programs for the soul30 mon
- ;)
Comedy TV Shows
-Golden Girls
-Two & a half Men
-Seinfeld
Heartwarming TV Serials
-Gilmore Girls
-HOUSE
-ER
Romantic Comedies
-Addicted to Love (Meg Ryan)
-When Harry met Sally (Meg Ryan)
-You’ve got mail (Meg Ryan)
-Sleepless in Seattle (Meg Ryan)
-The holiday (Kate Winslet)
-Music and Lyrics (Drew Barrymore and Hugh Grant)
-Two weeks notice (Hugh Grant)
-It’s complicated (Meryl Streep)
-Something’s Gotta Give (Jack Nicholson)
-Going the distance (Drew Barrymore)
-50 First Dates (Drew Barrymore)
-Runaway Bride (Richard Gere)
-Pretty Woman (Rich ... read more
- Good music for the soul30 mon
- :)
JAZZ
Sabor a Mi
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2pugqe2iTyE&feature=related
La derniere Valse
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e5SxKgTAMcA&feature=related
Cosa hai messo nel caffe
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3zJs4IQue-c&feature=related
O Sole Mio
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ymMi9uBWufQ&feature=related
Pretty world
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QtAFiN6YT8c&feature=related
Gentle on my mind
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-6B9pAP4Q-U&feature=related
Les Feuilles Motes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z9AZHU8pq7c&feature=related
BILL EVANS
Waltz for ... read more
- Truthful observations about life30 mon
- Share yours!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-6B9pAP4Q-U
This world is going down in a hand basket. There is a dearth of manners, language, critical thinking, cultural preservation, justice.
This world is overrun by power-hungry criminals who look upon anything and everything as a dollar sign.
Everyone is selfish. Everyone has an agenda. Everyone has a past which gives birth to their constitution. personality flaws.
90% of people you will ever meet are dull. 5% of them are downright nasty. But the 5% left makes ride through life worthwhile. They are often a combination of ... read more
- Good art for the soul30 mon
- Art
”One must work and dare if one really wants to live.” -Vincent van Gogh, Dutch painter
PETER DRATNISIN
(video 3/5) A vase of flowers
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kkMyBNhLfo4&feature=related
(Video 5/5) Pots on a table
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E6FxEJfvOEI&feature=fvsr
”I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” -Mara angelou
TERRY HARRISON-- TECHNIQUES
-(Video 5/5)Trees
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lE7iBna59ek&feature=related
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- La vie extraordinaire--how to30 mon
- Dedicated to a boy who gave me some of the best times of my life and taught me how to live a great life. I wish you all the love and happiness in the world. Merci.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e5SxKgTAMcA
Nobody has ever taught me how to live a great life. Most often, the answers I get are trite and predictable: get good grades, graduate, make something out of your life with a well-paid job, find a good (rather a rich) man and start a family. There is absolutely nothing wrong with this answer, except it seems to me to be just another list of to-dos. It neither delights my heart nor captivates my mind. More importantly, it does not lend any consideration to the attitude that would bring about la vie extraordinaire.
My mind floated back today ... read more
- Day 1 to a Brand New Life30 mon
- Let's go :-)
For every pain I had been dealt with in my past, I am grateful for every blessing I have. As another tumltuous year draws to a close, I have made a promise to myself that I shall love and protect myself and never let anyone or anything hurt or harm me from now onwards, an attitude that will be the nexus of a ”brand new life”.
I believe some of you who may stumble upon this blog may have already reached a similar paradigm at some point in your life, so here I am, excited to join the club and gladly share my journey with you. I am sure I would need much encouragement and I hope for those ... read more
- The story behind it all30 mon
- This will take me a really long time to complete; I shall come back often to add more to it until it finishes, but it will be a really hard section to face because I will have to be forced to relive the trauma every time I come here. I shall do my best.
Beauty
Exercise: Endurance--Jogging; Lungs--swimming; Toning--swimming; Muscle strength--rock climbing
Beauty: Hair--cut colour rebond; Eye--eyelid, eyebrow, eyelash, Nose; Teeth--dental checkup, pull out wisdom teeth, whitening; Lips; BMI=17.5; Breasts; Buttocks; Style
***Am I on track to be the portrait of health I hope to see?
***Did I feed myself food that I deserve? Nutrition-dense
***Did I treat my body like it deserves?
MIND
History; Math; Earth Science; Evolution
Politics; Culture; Languages; Art; Music
FINANCES
Investments
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- References for victims of trauma, bulimia, eczema and first-time fasters30 mon
- Under construction
Books and recommedations:
TRAUMA
-(Movie 5/5) A Single Man starring BAFTA Best Actor Colin Firth, 2008
-(Movie 5/5) The diving bell and the butterfly starring Julian Schnabel, winner of Best Director and Best Foreign Film, 2008
-(Movie 5/5) Toy Story 3,2,1, 2010
-(Movie 5/5) Shine, winner of people’s choice award and critic’s choice award at the 1996 toronto international film festival
-(Movie 5/5) I am Sam starring Liam Neeson
-(Movie 5/5) Iris starring Kate Winslet
-(Movie 3/5) The Secret Garden, 1993
-(Movie 5/5) A little Princess, 1995
BULIMIA
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ECZEMA
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