The Coward's Way Out?
You can't outright reject drugs that help you feel better, just because you think it's 'wrong' or that you're weak for taking them.
Date: 4/21/2007 8:22:57 AM ( 6 y ) ... viewed 1145 times
Sometimes you have to just go with conventional medicine and bite back your feelings of being weak or ashamed or whatever else you feel about taking 'drugs.' So that's what I did. I was sick and tired of feeling sick and tired all the time--being unable to sleep, and the little sleep I got was not refreshing at all. I woke up feeling like I'd been hit by a truck. My body hurts all the time, even doing the smallest of tasks. My neck, lower back, hips and legs ache whenever I do any kind of housework, which makes me feel depressed and useless, which leads to deeper feelings of guilt and worthlessness. My doctor, though I argued with him, insists that I have fibromyalgia, which is the cause of all my symptoms and told me to stop being embarrassed or feeling bad if I need something to help me, like drugs.
Well, you know what? I spent the better part of a year in bed. That's no good at all. When you can't get up and you can't live your life, because you're too tired and achy to do so, you have to believe that maybe your doctor isn't so dumb after all and try it his way. So that's what I did, starting about six days ago. I wish I'd done that before! I feel so much better on Wellbutrin to help combat the depression and Amitryptiline to help me sleep. I've been out of bed for three days, doing so much. I even helped a friend paint a house yesterday without feeling exhausted. My muscles still ache and my whole body felt like I'd run a marathon, but I wasn't nuked, like I'd certainly be before.
I've tried everything to help myself the natural way. The Kombucha tea helps a lot, but it doesn't keep me out of bed. I still brew and drink it every day, for its benefits to my hair, skin and nails. I take Omega 3 and flax seed oil, glucosamine, chondroitin & MSM, as well as B12 supplements, but after a month of taking those, still no major change.
So call me weak, dumb and stupid, or a coward . . . or whatever, but I need these drugs because they're helping me more than all the natural things I've done combined. I can't believe it's 9:AM and I feel great, after a great night's sleep. In fact, my son and I are going to do some yard work today. I haven't been able to do that in ages.
I think there needs to be a balance sometimes. You can't outright reject drugs that help you feel better, just because you think it's 'wrong' or that you're weak for taking them.
Thanks for listening,
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