My emotional state is different...I actually have them...a range of them...

Date:   8/31/2005 7:53:14 PM ( 19 y ago)

August 31, 2005 @ 5:43 PM

My emotional state is different...I actually have them...a range of them...instead of mad being the only one I seem able to express, I can express happiness, joy, love. It isn't that I didn't feel these things and I certainly express a lot of emotion around my daughter, but to other people I have become muted in that department. Yesterday though, my little sister gave me her digital camera to use (because I lost mine in June and haven't taken a picture of my baby for two months [tragic]). I was so happy, I smiled and said, "Thank you" with so much enthusiasm it startled me. I hugged her and sat next to her and gave her my full attention as she explained to me how to use her camera. My little 12 year-old sister is amazing...she actually read and remembers what she read in the instruction manuel. It felt so good to express happiness and gratefulness in that way again.

I do feel my exuberant self coming back to me.

 

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