trust, faith, surrender

Date:   12/14/2005 9:21:36 PM ( 19 y ago)

Recently, I had a dream that I met a guide by a pond on the edge of a forest. I asked him, ' what more can i do to assist the sorrowed? ' He responded, ' you have to go to the other side.' -I quieried him, ' but, what does that mean? '
he repeated, ' you have to go to the other side. '
For days I pondered and meditated on this advice- did he mean I have to die? Did he mean that I had to go into the spirit world, as a shaman, and return with something to share with the sorrowed?
Neither of these resonated within me, so I knew I was not about to understand the meaning soon.
Then, after about 5 days, I sat in breath awareness, empty, void, simply being the All that we are.
My heart qi suddenly expanded like an inner explosion of golden sparklers. The answer hummed within my whole being. I was a gong, a bell of light, and I knew that what he meant is that by asking ' what more can "I" do to assist the sorrowed...' I was NOT trusting that spirit would guide me to be in the right place at the right time for the approriate people. The ' other side ' of not trusting (spirit) is trust.
I gave in and began to trust. For days afterwards, every time I went out into the world, on my way to classes, (I teach taiji and qigong) to the beach, anywhere at all, I would encounter people here and there that I would have something to say or do for them that definitely took a burden off of their shoulders, out of their minds and hearts. Spirit guided me to be in the place to save an elderly woman from being mugged, and possibly killed, by a young, drunk, angry youth. I touched his arm, just as he was about to strike her on the back of the neck with his fist. (He had asked her for 'spare change' and she ignored him, shuffling past to get away as quickly as her shaking legs would carry her.) He spun around and lost his balance. I looked into his eyes and asked with spirit's voice, 'are you alright, man?' His anger and violence seemed to dissolve, he was frozen by Spirit's strength, not mine.
This is just one example of the many things like this that have been happening since the answer was given me... my voice changed when I spoke to these people, literally. It came from my heart, it seemed, not my throat, through my throat, yes, but from my heart. at the same time, as the words came out, I felt this incredible loving, safe, enormous compassionate spirit within me.. the words and actions that came from me at those times were not 'mine,' not ego.
And so, I suggest to you, my Lightkin-in-Dreaming, that you too, in this same way, need to go to the other side. Trust.
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~May your day flow from the Rainbow
of your soul and bathe your heart in
all the colors of joy!~

*Love*Light*Joy*Trust*Gratitude*Eternally*

~LightLizard~

 

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