(And I don't mean that in a nice way)

Date:   8/20/2007 7:42:54 PM ( 17 y ago)

I've come to That Point in  my raw diet. There appear to be several benchmarks (for want of a better word) that I reach in the early stages of my raw odyssey. One is a point where I've eaten the same thing over and over and start to get bored.  There's also a point where I have little time or energy to put ingredients together and find myself eating some nasty combination of veggies in a makeshift salad.  Today I was running late and threw together the most tasteless group of veggies you can think of (I won't recount them for you or you may feel as sick as I did).  As I sat during a lunchtime seminar at my job, eating my nasty salad, I actually realized I was contemplating a trip to the bathroom to purge the contents of my stomach. It was that bad.  Sigh...

So now I have a new quest: to go through my blog history and refresh my memory of the stuff I used to eat, then find a way to prepare salads and other meals using the tastier and easiest-to-prepare ingredients.  I know that when I am bored and unsatisfied, I am more likely to stray from my raw diet in the early stages of transforming my eating.  I think being in this alone adds to the difficulty. When I had a partner we both shared in the food ideas and meal preparations, shared the shopping duties, and reminded each other of why we are doing this.  We also told each other how great we were looking, how loose our clothes were getting, how good we were being to our bodies, etc.   I'm not good at telling myself this stuff, so going it alone is more difficult in ways I hadn't previously considered.  Having a nutritionist is a big help.  Now, if she would just move in and cut up my veggies for me!

Speaking of the nutritionist, I have lost more weight.  I'm now down about 18 lbs since June 10th.  At 20 lbs lost she'll take my measurements again.  I have noticed my pants are a tad looser, but that thrill of knowing I am truly on my way hasn't hit me yet. I used to get overjoyed at losing weight. I'd have the next lower sized pants hanging in the closet and I would make bets on how long it would be before I'd fit into them.  I don't have that joy anymore, perhaps because I've been there, done that. Or maybe I'm more focused on health then size - I do get joyful over improvements in my cholesterol and BP levels, after all!  I would like to have that joy in other areas again, though. I remember how much I loved my achievements in the gym a few years ago, and how much fun it was to give away a new pile of "fat" clothes.  

The stress of being a grad student probably interferes with that joy a little, too.  Between the dissertation research, comprehensive exam studies, and growing work responsibilities, I am stressed out quite often- in fact, I am pretty good at being stressed!  So good that  my blood pressure was 120/90.  The nutritionist said that stress (and not drinking enough water) are two things that can raise the lower number.  Both of those  are issues for me, so I am going to try meditation, and will try to do better with the water.

 

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