How will I measure up?

Date:   12/8/2006 4:38:46 PM ( 18 y ago)

So, I met with the trainer once already this week and as I mentioned got a good feeling from his energy and passion in getting people in shape. And the new gym atmosphere is much more inspiring. At the gym I go to now it's a very relaxed and non-competitive environment which is nice..... but I also don't have many role models there who look great and lean/thin. Honestly I am a little intimidated but need to get over that.

My personal goal is to loose inches and fat. Definitely don't want to get muscular. The trainer I talked to is very lean but not built up... so I think he knows his stuff.

I had nightmares last night about meeting with the trainer. I envisioned him laughing at me cause I was so fat and the feeling of embarrassment was huge. I literally woke up nearly every hour and looked at the clock to see if it was time to wake up and having a fear in my stomach of going to the gym. But, I need to view this as the beginning. A fresh start with some much needed support. Obviously, I have proved to myself over the past several months that I cannot do it on my own. Having this extra kick in the butt 2 times a week will I think be a great motivator. It's so hard for me not to obsess about weight. I almost feel like thinking about it more is making me gain weight.

I am praying that this will be the answer!

 

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