I have attempted (not very long due to being at work) to find a cause even just a surface cause of kidney and lower back pain.
"Fear, kidneys and lower backache are all related. Lower back often relates to worry about finances or the fear of moving on because of lack based thinking. The kidneys hold water when we are fearful. They constrict and retain. Retention is due to the fear of releasing limiting thoughts and old fears and then moving on to something new."
I am not 'seeing' any. So, in saying that, to find a root cause, to 'cut away at' is being even more difficult.
Also, to add to this, I manifested money problems on my way home from work. I was leaving the parking lot and sped a little while in parking lot, to get a 'feel' for the traction. It was snowing and didn't look too bad. I slowed down, due to opening gate and when I left the drive onto the road, my car swerved into curb. I could not control my wheel to pull back.
I managed to break the rim and a guy from work who came out after me, while I was looking at it, told me I had an aluminum rim, thus costing more than a steel one. I asked if I would need a tire and he said most likely if I drive on it. I had to get home. I decided to take the car to the tire store and call when they open. This way, if I get a flat, it is there already. I have the 'insurance' on the tire, so that is not a huge expense. The rim may be.
I cannot see (nor do I know what my thoughts were the moment before happening) what I am bringing in to cause money going out, instead of coming in. OR even go out, as quickly as coming in.
Help, please?...suggestions for a possible Root cause of back and kidneys...the fear associations... Also, as to thoughts on why or how I caused this car to slide into the curb...
Well, the beauty is YOU get to figure out the true answers for all your questions and mysteries. Of course many people and processes can help you. It's great when you start finding your answers (as you have) because there are so in alignment with your energy (soul)...it all makes such perfect sense for you. So always remember, go with what feels right to you...we are all only making suggestions.
Your thoughts/feelings and direct life experience often leads us to our answers. I have found this true time and again. Everything is contained in your life...we only need to ask and be open.
So if you don't know, turn it around and ask yourself. Consciously ask yourself, what are my limiting beliefs in this area? What am I afraid of?
Maybe that is very general...so look at your life for the clues....
What are you **really** afraid of?
Are you afraid of losing your job, being homeless, relationships, money issues, etc?
Low back issues, also, are often, if not always, stemming from beliefs we've borrowed from our family/tribal consciousness. They are usually passed from generation to generation.
Like for me a true one may be "You have to work hard for financial support". Or "It's too hard to pursue your dreams, so forget it".
So look at your family too....OK, what are big family issues for your family...and more specifically, which ones do you get an **emotional** or *Mental* reaction from? Which don't you like? Which do you judge...? Those topics would be clues...
These beliefs don't show themselves overnight, always, either. I have been 'waking up' for a few years now and I said in a recent post, repeated some limiting behaviors several times, getting more and more insight every time...that's just been my experience, yours may be different.
For the car, very generally, it seems you are not in control, your actions are hasty and careless (there's no judgment there, just observation).
I sometimes interpret real life like a dream, for to me it is, this is what flat tires may represent and it sounds like it may be right on...
" you are feeling weary and emotionally drained. Your goals are temporarily hindered and as a result, you are unable to progress forward."
Maybe just giving yourself a break right now, too, is in order.
so there are a couple things about when I read this reply. First off, I got VERY defensive :D. I thought what the heck are you putting your paws up (me putting mine up)? Then I realized because you were relaying my knowingness back to me. (I suppose I wanted something different).
Secondly, as I continued to read, I began to cry. Now crying is a good thing! Yet, sometimes it doesn't feel like it is.
I just got back from the tire store, when I read your reply. I have the money to pay what they want, I just didn't desire (not consciously) to pay for that expense!
At any rate, as far as your comment: "For the car, very generally, it seems you are not in control, your actions are hasty and careless (there's no judgment there, just observation)." You were head on, no judgments taken. It is what it is, what it is.
"" you are feeling weary and emotionally drained. Your goals are temporarily hindered and as a result, you are unable to progress forward.""
Yes, I am and the problem I have seen especially yesterday is that I am surrounding myself by people who 'hold me to my past'.
I need to fix the weariness and emotionalness. I am taking a sabbatical from the computer. I am taking a sabbatical from 'friends' as well as I can, from work.
Thank you Lori, your whole post was head on. Thank you for the no holds bar.
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