I had the mirena out over a month ago. about 5 days later i had the 'crash' with suicidal thoughts etc. This lasted about 3 days at it's worst. Things have been better since, but not much better and I'm starting to get worried this thing has effected me permanently :( I still have almost daily anxiety, which I never had until i had it taken out! I did have the depression though, but i have always suffered with that during my adult life, it just got worse with the mirena. It's really effecting my relationship, as i'm suspitious, argumentative and always negative. I don't seem to find fun in anything at the moment. I thought once it was out I'd get back to 'normal'. I wasn't expecting an over night change, but this is starting to drag. I've booked myself to go and get a blood test done this week to check my hormone levels. The strange thing I've noticed, is that I did have slight bleeding and cramping monthly in the last few months of he mirena and I had a small bleed a week after removal. now i'm a week late and nothing, not even cramping. My body is really all over the place.
I'd apreciate any similar stories, and any ray of hope you guys can offer me.
I remember how desperate I was to get the mirena out because my life had turned into crap. The day I got it out I felt awesome relief because I knew life was going to get better. I quit suicidal thoughts the first day. My husband and I were having major problems. That did not make it any easier. My periods started right away but they were far from normal. I would say my depression and rage really left me at four months. It seems like I was so desperate for life to get better that I got anxious anytime I got angry or witchy. Then I would think maybe I was messed up for life. I noticed with each period I had PMS was the bad time. After each period I felt like my body was more balanced. I still have weird symptoms around my period but life is so much better. On bad days I would remind myself that mirena had been a traumatic thing in my body. It takes time to recover. I also noticed looking back that my depression problems started about the time I started taking birth control pills. I also noticed I had some of the same side effects on pills as I did on mirena, mirena was the worst bc method for me. I finally feel like me. I am totally different now, my husband said the other day that he cannot believe how much I have changed. I hope you feel better soon!
thanks for that :) i've heard so many people 'recover' as soon as they have the mirena removed, that I was wondering if I was on my own being further down the road, but no nearer to the finish line. For some reason knowing it may take months, helps me deal with it, and forgive myself a little. For I'm like you in so much as I get irritated / anxious at myself for getting moody or tearful. Like I think it's my fault i'm not fully recovered yet! I can't understand why I can't control it, it frustrates me, causing more anxiety. I don't like being out of control I guess.
Be patient with yourself. My husband tried to rush me to get better sometimes. Now he feels stupid for not being more supportive. When I started feeling anxious or depressed I made sure I exercised. Even a walk around the block helped me get those feel good endorphins going. I also do water aerobics. It actually gives me a natural high.after removal I took a lot of time outs for myself, that helped too. I also had the mindset that just because I had a bad day that tomorrow had to be better because I was a day closer to being better. I hated that feeling everyday asking myself if I was "normal" yet. I finally have quit asking myself that question. It takes time. Be patient with yourself even if people around you aren't.
I also hate feeling out of control. Its really bad when you and others notice how negative you are, so I just stay inside because I don't want to be seen as a negative person. For 3 years I have missed Thanksgiving parties and Christmas parties because I just couldn't force myself to leave the house and join in the family fun. I stopped going to church also, I don't want to share my pain with everyone and besides they wouldn't understand.
Finally this year I decided to join in the fun if I am feeling well. When it was bad it was very BAD, any little disagreement and I would just hang the phone up on my mother while she waited for a reply. LOL its funny now. I don't like to fuss so when I do join in the fun or go out I make sure nothing upsets me.
I limit reactions to bad drivers to less than one minute and tell myself no one is trying to hit me.
Its easy to be negative its very easy to say NO to everything, I should know, but when you are feeling fine and in contol have some fun. Nothing could get me out of the house until I won tickets from the radio, I won 3 times. It was easy to have fun because no one knew me or expected me to be my old happy self.
I don't know if the anxiety ever ends but it becomes less freguent.
I'm 5 weeks post-removal,and i know what you are talking about.
Now i'm in a good week,and hope there comes another one.
When i'm so good as i am now,i always am afraid for what is coming.
I'm scared of being scared.
Because it happened to me so many times,when i'm happy,and feeling fine,suddenly a cloud comes over me,and i feel misserable and depressed.
when that feeling comes,I hate myself,and i think i will never come out of this.
When i look at my children,i feel very sad,and guilty,because i often think they are better of without me.that i cannot take care of them.
My husband is very patient with me,he is a big support to me.
But my doubts are sometimes stronger than my trust,and that has to change.
I really hope that it will be better forever,
My problem is,that i think my recovery goes too slow.
My therapist told me to be patient,but it's so difficult,when you are used to be a happy loving wife and mother.
I was always there for everyone,and could handle everything!.
Now i'm happy with a good day,doing my best to walk or swim with my kids,without a panicattack.
I'm so tired of this i often cry myself to sleep.
Dragonfly,you can write it just as it is,and i'm glad you can tell us we have to have faith in our recovery.
Thank you.
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