I just had to write to you as little less then 6 month ago i was imagining I am seeing the end of the rope.
I was skinnier then ever, pale as a hospital wall decorated with glamorous red blinking pimples, huge lymph nodes all over my body and about as much energy as a made in china watch battery.
I was waking up in the darkest moods and felt sparking irritable at any moment, just needed some tickling to become a hurricane of tears and hopelessness.
I thought I was basically gonna die and every image of myself, my life was a huge chaos and dark predictions spiced up by fears.
I've seen doctors and raised my depression as the wallet was decreasing.
Until, at about that point when I would have tried just about anything I visited a friend who is an alternative medicine men.
For the first time I got a diagnosis that resonated with a weird hunch I had for month by then: I had overspread candida and more then one type of parasites.
Suffering from arthritis ever since I was a teen I discovered how I might have been a victim of my own habits for a whole lifetime.
I was directed to a very strict diet. I thought I was eating healthy even before by not being a very meat loving, processed food eating person. However when placed on the anti-candida diet (which by the way today I use as a guideline to my own diet) i realized how far off the dairy loving, pasta eating me was from any form of healing, health maintaining nutritional habit.
It was not easy to respect the guidelines of no simple carbs, no Sugar
(any type of sugar even fruit), no coffee and wine (i love'em both!...i guess). The first week was one of agony. I would have eaten my own fingers if they where dipped in something sweet and I mean real sweet not stevia sweet. Also, coffee has shown it's teeth when living without it turned out to be filled with migraine and fogginess.
BUT: it all ended somewhere at that point. Every day started to be a day closer to the sunlight again. My mind was gaining a clarity I don't even remember when I experienced before, my body was becoming as lean as clean.
And my spirit, it took flight.
It is definitely a huge awakening realizing how deep a grip certain culinary habits and stimulant uses have on us. That has marked my life from then on since I am one of those people who feels like predators weather they come in form of yeast or a thought have nothing to do in me and don't want to be addicted even mildly to anything.
Keeping up a conscious healthy eating habit, good sleep routine and building on your spirit trough search for knowledge (so you never do something without knowing and therefore without believing...as it would be a waste of energy) is a challenge but a challenge that you grow into just as smoothly as we all grow into our unhealthy habits all it's needed is persistency, belief is your own capacity and that of all humanity to overcome even the greatest of imagined challenges.
If you would like more info about diet and other useful tips, let me know as I will gladly give them to you however sickness begins in the mind and the mind is where the healing also begins.
You suffer a momentary imbalance and there is positively ways out of it as far as you are ready and determined to take them.
Health is as pure and simple as love is.