I feel your pain in what you have written... my eyes are wet.. i want you to read something i have been waiting to tell others for some time... i guess this is a good enough time to say it...
We have all been conditioned to be masochists…
For all the governments to be able to maintain so many people living together,
all the nations of this world have created overly-moralistic and emotionally-oppressive societies for the people that reside under their rule. And, the most oppressed group of individuals on the planet are the children of each of these societies. The child comes into this world full of innocence. Upon his very first breath... the stripping of this innocence from him begins with a slap from the doctor... Such a welcome???
Discovering the world on his own... without the interference from others... now, this would be a very rare individual indeed... but it is most definitely not the case...
The awe and the wonder of it all has somehow been quickly stolen away.
The more the child lives his life, the more he finds it is not his life to live.
He is told what is good, what is bad, what is right and what is wrong… what he can’t do and what he can… soon the child is lost … in the name of ‘good intentions’, he will be made to properly fit into the society …becoming a good conformist…
Conformity means that the child will be a useful cog in the wheel of the society. So that society’s survival is ensured …but not necessarily the child’s own survival. In fact, it is at the cost of the child’s physical and mental well-being that the society survives ...that is the price that is paid... so the society can go on surviving... and for the child --he will be put into an early grave...
As a consequence... as part of society's plan... the expression of most emotions that arise in an individual is unacceptable in most social settings. One cannot cry in public... show their displeasure or their anger... Even laughter, at times, must be held inside so as not to be seen or heard by others… so others are not embarrassed …or put in awkward situations...
So... the society has developed a strategy for its members… they are to ‘control’ themselves… and, with this, society can go on functioning normally... the strategy is called 'repression' or 'suppression' of one's emotions ...so that other members of society will not be disturbed... and the pace of society will remain unobstructed...
the child is taught this early on... so when he matures into an adult, it appears to be a natural course in the living of one's life... it becomes an automated response to a countless number of situations...
Over years of ‘controlling’ one’s emotions… of pushing this energy back inside from where it comes… it finds a place to hide, where it will not be seen by others. .. This unexpressed energy lodges itself somewhere within... to be held there, so as not to be ever seen or heard by others ...it finds its way deep into some muscle, into some connecting tissue, into some organ …somewhere deep into the subconscious it goes, as well... and, for everyone it is different…
This causes a certain amount of stagnated energy to accumulate within the body-mind of the individual… But energy is meant to move! If it is prevented from moving on its natural course, it will then move in a perverted way! ...In this perverted form, it can do a lot of damage to the body-mind mechanism….
Over time one becomes as if sitting on top of a volcano of pent-up emotions and physical stress within, ready to explode… at the slightest scratch of the skin... but one must always keep a smiling face… hiding the reality of it from others …so that no one will ever find out about this secret that is buried inside...the hidden volcano. One can even fool himself into believing that there is not a problem... as long as he says “hello”… “good morning"... "how are you”... with a smiling face. Hence, this unexpressed energy can do tremendous harm to the body-mind mechanism…
And so what is the way out of this dilemma? --To stop hurting oneself!
If one truly loves himself ...then, one will not be masochistic any longer! …then, it is of utmost importance to find ways to express this energy that has been stuffed back inside for so long…
I suspect this is a central reason for the adrenal fatigue problems that arise in this society... in all societies... along with the diet that helps one to remain distracted from seeing what is buried within... along with the countless other habits and activities one pre-occupies himself with... so the ugly mess that one has created for himself is never encountered... One can live his entire life avoiding this inner reality... but then could this really be called a life? ...maybe, the best label... would be to call it a dead life... or psuedo-life... or a sad life... but certainly not a very joyful one
Understanding this is...is the beginning... and truly loving oneself is the cure… this means, finding ways to express the emotions that are held back within body-mind is part of the cure… consider it another type of cleanse for the body and mind...
Get to the gym …go for a run… but get your emotions involved in the activity...go into your closet with a pillow and scream the frustration out of you… the anger -out of you... the tears and sadness -out of you... do not be afraid... it is natural… do whatever you need to do to become clean of all the garbage that has been collected over the years and is held inside of you….
It sounds crazy… yes! It is! ...that’s exactly what society has been encouraging you to do to yourself… sinking more and more into a kind of madness! …it is time to reclaim your sanity... and to start living life on your own terms... it is for your own physical and mental well-being… it is a matter of choosing life over death!
at least consider this possibility...
peace in loving
"it is time to reclaim your sanity... and to start living life on your own terms... it is for your own physical and mental well-being… it is a matter of life over death!"
ain't it though? 7 mos. ago I didn't know that I was carrying my death around in my breast(well, I suspected, just didn't seem to be as "benign" & common" as they say). Now I am most assuredly going to LIVE. How to live?
It's so much EASIER to leave things as they are, but it's death, to me.
Your words truly stuck a cord with me. I have always been a round peg in a square hole. From the moment I was born, I was cast out, unwanted.... Then adopted into a wonderful family, but placed there with a job to fulfill. After 10 years of waiting for the "perfect child", I was expected to fill the role and be that "perfect child". Don't get me wrong, I did have wonderful parents, but my father at least, was never interested in "me", just the image, just the perfection that never existed.
Spending my entire life scared of abandonment, I have always towed the party line, so to speak. I am a rebel at heart. A punk rocker. An anarchist. I hate conformity. And yet I conform everyday. My husband is ultra-conservative. I live in ultra-conservative town. I am not well liked here and have no real friends, just a few people I know. No-body "gets" me. I am too different. So I hide away in my own little world, my dog for company, most of my time spent in isolation.
Your words really spoke to me. Without going into long boring details, the last several years have been one nightmarish sage after another. When I think about all I have gone through, the bigger question would be, "why haven't my adrenals failed". It all makes so much sense. I know the doctors wont be any help to me. They will just look at me as one more paranoid, lonely, hypochondriac, female, with no idea what she is talking about. Been there and done that in the past.
So I guess it's up to me. No one else can reclaim my life but me. I thought I was doing that when I first came to CZ. I thought that I was on the right track, but then everything got so much worse. Detox? Maybe. Maybe this would have happened anyway after all the stress of the past few years. But thanks to your information that you have posted, I finally feel like I have an answer. One that makes sense. I am not sure who it was, but someone posted a reflexology hand map chart. The spot which corresponds to the adrenal glands on both my hands are so very tender. Nowhere else on my hands hurt when you press it, but it does there. I know this is what the problem is.
I am rambling. Sorry. I am just so happy and relieved to finally be on the right track. I can't thank you enough. I still have questions and I feel like I still have such a long way to go, but at least I am on the right track now. And I know I can do it.
Thank you so much again.
Biggest hugs......
Tracie.
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Just so you know, I was not adopted and felt like an outsider most of my life. Never obedient enough, never assertive enough, never feminine enough, too curvy, too smart, too friendly, too ebullient! Do you believe that one??? I still don't. Scorned for being a happy person.
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When I was in my twenties, I was a very unhappy person. People would see me frowning and say "What's wrong?" It infuriated me.
I am much happier now. I smile a whole lot more. A few years ago, I decided to use conscious language and affirm that life is wonderful. Everytime somebody said, "How are you?" I'd answer "Wonderful!"
I could feel some people's jealousy and envy. Some wanted to know how I managed it. I just decided I wanted to be happier and did it.
I thought about what I enjoyed and made those things a priority in my life. I like doing yoga, dancing, singing and playing the piano. I bought a piano at salvation army, joined a choir, signed up for a yoga class and started dancing at Sweat Your Prayers.
There will always be somebody displeased, ready to judge and criticize, regardless of what you do. It's important to follow your heart and be true to yourself.
One of the great things about Curezone is that we are a community of empowered people learning from each other and not "authorities."
I've noticed taking control of your own health, getting empowered, or even sounding off about fluoride, really annoys people who are slaves to authority and convention. They want us to be as obedient and unempowered as they are. Thinking for yourself is considered arrogant and eccentric.
As Turiya said, "We are all conditioned to be masochists." From the time we sit in a row in kindergarten and do as we're told, we learn to accept the answers we're given. Thus begins our training to become a culture of masochists.
No, I just got called away from the computer. I loved it. Thanks for thinking of the Stones' song and cheering me on. It got me started all over again! :)
I think Iodine will help us all reclaim our sanity. For me, i have been in a state of not caring what others think and pretty loose with my words.
For years I lived with an oppressive husband. You could see it taking a toll on me. The psychiatrist put me on prozac then zoloft for a few months to get my act together. I found the strength to get out. And stopped the meds. He since has passed on.
Several years later my chiropractor/CMR told me my adrenals were bad. He gave me nutrition to help straighten it out. Nothing really helped until I got my almagams out and started iodine. My life has changed, again, for the better!
Hopefully I can afford to go back to him and he can check me for liver and adrenals, with everything else.
One of my favorite sayings, and I don't know where it came from sorry,
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