Re: ms.right..ms.RIGHT NOW...

good points..

especially with

"You are OBJECTIVE (see things as they really are), but when people try to sugarcoat something (disguise it as "good", SUBJECTIVE explanation), you are bothered by this (dislike/hate) that because you are just/fair."

that's true..I like to cut to the center of the matter and avoid the bs..I used to try and analyize everything and make sense out of it all..then I realized,it would be much easier to just accept it as they are..without it all having some rhyme nor reasoning.

Right now,I will admit..I am still young,naive and to cocky for my own good..my only real aspiration for the next few years is to take the world by storm,travel as much as I can and try to put out or maybe tame the fire that is inside of me..not sure exactly where it stems from or it's roots of origin..I just feel like there is so much more to my life then it is right now..with work and coming school here. I don't have all the answers,I don't really know all that much quite frankly..but I know I have a strong enough head on my shoulders to avoid the BS and keep on my path in spite of whatever happens.Not ever going to be all right...because so much is already wrong but it doesn't mean I can just enjoy myself on the journey there..in the darkest pits of depression and internal turmoil to the highest peaks of my own manic creations of moods maybe even delusions..I will take it all in and if it devours me whole and takes my life..so be it..better to follow the path of my heart and dreams and have it destroy me then to merely dream of better days though in fear of the wrong and misfortunes..might as well take in both and enjoy their deeply polar contrasts...I won't be 27 forever..even with a heart and soul of an 18 year old..


I know I am not ready for love..I have no idea of the meaning..I can't even feel the word much less understand it's true meaning..


I am not out to hurt nor manipulate anyone with my emotions..all I am searching for is pleasure if for the sake of it being merely physical..for now at least lol.

'old farts' lol...I'll never become 'old'..my spirit is forever young.
(:

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