Help me! Sooo-oo tired after fighting sleep all night. AGAIN!

I've just spent the whole of the night awake fighting and fighting and fighting sleep. Why do I do this? Does anyone else do this? Am I alone?

I've got Adult ADHD and I've been like this since I was a little girl. I remember reading and listening to the radio until 2 or 3 in the morning under the covers and my teachers telling me and my parents off because I was forever falling asleep in class. I'm middle-aged now and I STILL do it!
I find I just can't settle down because I'm so completely AWARE of everything around me - and my mind keeps on running like some mad machine.

The tiniest chink of light through the curtains keeps me awake. The smell of the fuel from cars going by makes me super-alert. The sound of shifting and toilet-flushing by my neigbours, remembering something I read about on the web, memories from 10 or 20 years ago... Aaargh! It's like I have to forever be on the alert 'just in case' something happens. What the hell is gonna happen at 3:30 in the morning???

I'm putting this message on a load of different places on the web because I know that there must be SOMEBODY out there who can suggest ways I can get to sleep. Is there some natural supplement I can use, or special treatment I can try?

And before you say warm baths, warm milky drinks, no TV or stimulating books, dark room, lavender oil, no coffee, St. John's Wort, blah blah blah. Yep, done all that, over and over again for years. And before you say, 'try drugs', nope, I don't want to go down that route because I don't want my feelings to be 'frozen'. I'n not depressed - feel quite chipper. I just force myself to stay awake, or if I wake up, then I force myself to STAY awake. Yeah, I know. It's crazy!

I'm sorry if I sound short or bad-tempered everybody. I don't usually come across that way. But today I'm so tired and so desperate, I kinda am! Somebody tell me please, What else can I try???

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