negativity (a bit of a rant)

I've been thinking a lot about mean people (or negative people, whatever) and what they are here to teach us. Obviously with my recent er.. disagreements with a few people here in the other forum this has been on my mind. (I know I should just stay away from it, but there is that pulling temptation of curiosity to go back and see what they said lol)

What is it for?

What does it have to teach me?

Something I noticed was whenever I said I was doing better, it seemed to almost anger people. NO I'm NOT doing better they would tell me, I'm lying to myself. It was as if they cannot comprehend the possibility that a person can go through a bad time and genuinly learn from it and move forward. Why would that be? Complete lack of faith? Or do they geniunely WANT to see someone fail?

My ex fiance was a meth addict for years. He was BORN on meth, his mother did it her whole pregnancy, and he quit, no rehab, no groups. He is now clean and has been for some time, he has a great job, a beautiful baby boy, he's a great father, etc.

I wonder how many people would have told him the same negative things had he told his story right around the time he quit. When he was using meth, he did a lot of horrible things too, he was abusive to me and stuff.

So many people would say things like "abusive men never change" or "Meth is an addiction that is impossible to just 'get over'" (I've heard that so many times) and yet people do it! My ex fiance (now my good friend) did it!

Why is it so hard for some people to believe that some people are strong?

All my life I've never had people "get me" very well. I'm an oddball I suppose. It's hard for people to understand why I've created dramas in my life during times I've been bored. I have a desire for experiences, good and bad. I'm GLAD I've experienced the darker side of drugs and drinking, just as I've experienced the positive side of some drugs as well. I feel like everything I go through in my life, gives me wisdom. If I meet someone down the road with a drinking problem, I can give them advice because I have "been there". I feel like hard times build character.

A lot of things lately have shown me that despite what I've been through, I somehow possess this infinitely positive and optimistic energy. I don't know why, I just can't seem to help but see the positive of almost every situation, and the undeniable BEAUTY in life, the good the bad and the ugly of it all. I think its a gift to be able to see things this way, and I've noticed, other people don't LIKE it when you are positive and hopeful and they seem to want to convince you otherwise, so evidenced by the way I was repeatedly talked down to in the other thread.

Why is this? Why are (some) people this way? Does it anger them when someone else does well? Do they think my actions are so horrendous that it makes them mad that I could just pick up and get back on track without any serious consequences?

The fact that I can, I think shows the benefits of a positive attitude perfectly.

Whether you think you can, or you think you can't, you're right. And the fact that THEY think I can't, doesn't have any effect on me, I still CAN, and will. :) Now that's beautiful. God is great! ANd so are you, because you think I can too. Thanks for being one of the positive people. :)

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