It would seem to me that those of my siblings who received my mother's characteristics may have been hyper-reactive. I remember my mother drinking coffee all day and we once went to a Silva Mind Control seminar together, so I knew she wanted to learn how to cope and relax. She was quite a good and generous person but also an angry one (Aries is both).
I was bullied pretty consistently as a child because I was (am) small and good-natured. I was always an independent sort, though, and never joined in with the crowd. This frightened and angered the bullies.
I have spenty the rest of my life doing what I can to thwart bullies, elitists and abusive authorities.
My parents were physically, mentally and verbally abusive, but they were uneducated Irish Catholic and maybe I am letting them slide when I shouldn't, but I don't want to fall off the other cliff and blame them for how I feel today. My early life was like dealing with a bully "tag team", where my school"mates" would harrass me in the morning and my parents would take over in the afternoon.
My escape has been through fantasy, art, delusion, even drugs at times.
I have been driven to the point of avoidancy and am now a complete recluse. This isolation is the main source of my stress, but my senses of practicality, humor and kindness will save me. No one can ever convince me that the good in me does not exist.
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