From Kindergarten to 8th grade I attended a Catholic school. While the academics were fantastic and it made public high school a breeze; however, it, along with the corruption and pedophilia in the Church have disgusted me to the point of no return.
I've always smoked weed; getting my medical marijuana recommendation as soon as I turned 18. I feel like Cannabis is an excellent spiritual aid. Recently after I became disenfranchised with Christian religion I started using psychedelics; mostly mushrooms. This was a huge breakthrough in my spiritual life and I finally felt like things were getting back on track. The psychedelics allowed me to examine my life from different, more natural perspectives. However, I soon realized that, obviously, shrooms couldn't be my religion.
About a year ago I met some friends who introduced me to Wicca. I never "practiced" the religion, but it felt right because it was closer to nature and seemed more natural. The acknowledgment of "energies" made sense to me because that was something I always noticed if only on a subconscious level.
I recently had to break ties with those friends due to their drug issues, which further disenfranchised me in Wicca; which I was never really dedicated to anyway. What I did take away from Wicca was the concept of the Goddess; which I interpret as Mother Nature, and I like that a lot.
So basically at this point I feel spiritually and religiously lost. I have a strong belief in God and the Goddess, but I don't feel like that's enough; I need direction.
Any help would be greatly appreciated, thanks a lot.