I recently realized that after following a candida diet for a few years, most of my symptoms have diminished. EVen though a lot of my health symptoms are better... I keep doing the diet because I am haunted by what I believed to be ''foggy brain''.
But I 'm starting to wonder if there's more to it than that, and if it's possible that the troublesome thoughts I have been experiencing were a result of something else more serious being wrong with my brain, and that the stress of trying to control these thoughts is what lead to my body's susceptibility to getting candida overgrowth.
Here it is.. me letting out the troublesome thoughts I've had since puberty. I thought they'd leave, but they haven't.
- constant fear that my father would rape me/attack me/touch me inappropriately
-constant fear that my mother would rape me/attack me/touch me inappropriately
-lack of trust in myself as I had an irrational/uncomfortable and monstrous urge to rape/attack innocent people/things myself
-uncalled for attraction (uncontrollable) to family members like mom, dad, siblings.
The reason I am starting to think that this is more than candida is because I did some reasearch and found that if a tumour is growing the parts of your brain responsible for emitting sexua| responses, the above thoughts can result.
Has anyone had these sorts of messed up thoughts from candia themselves? I understand how personal this is. I am so stressed out by these thoughts that won't leave and wonder if they're normal or not. Please let me know. I was hoping cleaning the candida would clear them away, but they seem to have come before the candida was an apparent issue.
Please know that I am a very responsible person who has always known right from wrong. I just feel like I'm constantly trying to ward off a monster, and as a child things never used to be this way.
I am also scared to say anything to anyone because there are mental issues on one of my parent's sides of the family. I do not have things as severely as they did, but I don't know what to do or who to turn to. I don't want to tell my doctor and be looked at as crazy, and I don't want my future career aspirations which center around nurturing to be stripped from me, because of these disturbing thoughts.
Alongside the thoughts I have a bipolar sex drive, meaning I will like some one and be attracted to them for a short while, but will then become drastically indifferent to them and not care about them in the slightest. I seem to have a sense of indifference at times towards the well being of everything.
I have more heart strength that brain strength so I can combat the thoughts. But I really don't want to have to actively fight them on a daily basis if they are not normal, and treatment in some capacity does exist.
So my quesiton to you is this. Are these thoughts a typical result of candida? Or should I be brave and fess up to my doctor so I can get tests done to see what's going on. I just don't want my family to know of these thoughts.
Thanks for any advice.