Yesterday I did my first speech at Toastmasters. Wow - what an exercise in "feeling the fear but doing it anyway". Holy cow! To a person who has spent her whole life hiding, putting myself in front of an audience felt like I was engaging in an 'extreme sport'!
Part of me feels reborn. There were more people in attendance last night than I have ever seen before (about 30). I spoke about struggling in childhood with learning disabilities and how believing myself to be inferior in the 'intelligence department' has prevented me from STEPPING UP TO THE PLATE (the title of my speech) and engaging in and embracing my own life. I talked about how my life instantly transformed the minute my limiting belief of being dumb proved to be untrue. I explained how I discovered that most of my health problems, especially related to impaired brain function, were in fact due to MSG poisoning. I described how, since my perspective shifted so dramatically, I was suddenly able to see life's possibilities vs. its impossibilities. I ended my 6-minute speech with an invitation to the audience to begin questioning the validity of their self-limiting beliefs because if they could let them go, miracles can and will happen, and the transformation could happen in a heartbeat.
I received glowing evaluations. I did not use any notes but rather spoke as authentically and from the heart as I could. Gauging the reaction of the audience, I must have made a strong connection. I was a bit overwhelmed from all the attention I received afterwards.
I am still reeling how the Universe, having heard my determined declaration of releasing my shame and self-consciousness, seems to be throwing me opportunities left, right and centre. Going from being so shy and feeling so inferior to everyone else all my life that I honestly wished I could be anyone but me (not a great recipe for a happy, fulfilling life) to speaking in public and inspiring others with my story is nothing short of miraculous.
Opportunities to prove that I am serious about letting my shame go are arriving in a fast and furious manner. I have been booked to give another health seminar in about three weeks time. But I will be talking for over an hour vs. the 6-minutes I spoke yesterday. Talk about sink or swim...YIKES. Make that double YIKES!!
Yesterday someone else I met asked me to do a seminar at her office in September and today I saw the woman who has booked me to do a seminar in August. She also asked me to repeat it again in September and October.