Sunday 10 y
"Better to light one small candle
than to curse the darkness."
I am feeling down. Hmmm.
Weight dropped to 138.6 yesterday evening, though i didnít post it. I thought iíd wait til this morning, to see if any more had come off! Well.. was on 138.something this morning too, (canít remember the ísomethingí), and played a trick on myself and said i would wait til after yoga, coffee enema etc to see had it gone down more..
Ha. This eve, somehow, after all my usual measures, am up to 140! : c
I do basically know what it is. I have been eating too much cheese! Damn cheese! And vinegar! Such weird choices of food i know, but hey. I overdid it. I must ... read more
Saturday 10 y
"See first that the design is wise and just; that ascertained, pursue it resolutely."
Well.. quite an eventful 24 hrs!
Yoga yesterday evening was hellish. the class was packed - 50 people ish - and we were ALL lying within half a foot of each other, on four sides. This makes for a seriously hot room. And the instructor we had is one of the tougher ones; she has no mercy; as regards the postures, and the heat! (she has power over the temp.).
I was nauseous as anything in the latter stages of the 90mins, as were others. Lots of people lay flat on their mats, sporadically, during the class. Everyone was just trying to bear the heat (leaving is heavily discouraged - altho ... read more
Friday 10 y
ďAnd forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair.Ē
Another day, more weight lost! Canít complain.
Down 0.6 lb today. From 140.2 to 139.6 . So glad to be under 10 stone again. I donít want to ever see that weight again! Iíll make sure I donít! It goes on so insidiously and so easily, and takes serious effort to remove (as you may know).
I just had my food of the day - gonna try to not eat again, even though itíll be difficult after yoga. Eat a kind of insalata caprese - a salad of torn basil leaves and some hard cheese, with olive oil and balsamic vinegar. I am very privileged in that I have access to the very best of ingredients - de ... read more
Thursday 10 y
Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones; and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace. God is awake.
- Victor Hugo
Down 0.8 lb since yesterday. Not bad, not bad at all!
Did my 1.5hrs hot yoga yesterday (as i will again later today), eat only a little peice of raw goatís cheese, and did a liver flush last night. Also coffee enemas. So iím cleansing with many approaches!
Felt superb this morning. When i woke up, i felt like just ten seconds had passed since falling asleep last night. I slept really, really deeply. Feels absolutely wonderful!
And get this: tuesday i eat a tiny bit of cheese and piece of salmon, wednesday i eat a small piece of cheese, and i havenít yet eaten today...PLUS 1.5hrs ... read more
Wednesday 10 y
"A rock pile ceases to be a rock pile
the moment a single man contemplates it,
bearing within him the image of a cathedral."
- Antoine De Saint-Exupery
Believe it or not, down 4.2 lb since yesterday. It is very clear too in the mirror, which is great.
Did my 1.5hrs hot yoga class yesterday, some coffee enemas, and eat a little raw goatís cheese + 1 piece organic salmon. Also drank a lot of water. Amazing how much weight i can drop down in a day like that. I reckon it was just a LOT of water i was holding, and the remaining food in my bowel.
Bikram yoga really is great. You sweat so much in there. The temperature is minimum 105F degrees and about 40% humidity. Basically, itís pretty hot. So hot that many people just sit on their mat ... read more
Tuesday 10 y
Bikram Yoga Challenge begins today
disaster continued from saturday night to last night. did a liver cleanse last night. weigh 145.2lb this afternoon.
This is so sad. Up 5.2lb in 3 days.
Evil advertisers, evil crap ífoodí that is all around us.
Am back on track now. And i have upped it a notch. Beginning a 30-day Bikram Yoga Challenge in 1.5hrs. First class then.
Bikram yoga is brilliant, if very, very tough. itís done in a studio heated to 40 celsius. class goes on for 90 mins.
the challenge is being run by my local place, and consists of attending class for 30 days in a row. i can miss one day a week, provi ... read more
Sunday 10 y
last night i could not resist the celebrations. easter saturday night; itís so joyful! i was given a present of an easter egg by a man i love!, and... uhh.. just couldnít resist.
itís the feeling of wanting to CELEBRATE; to mark the day as different.. but man, there are better ways to do it i know - just in the moment, at the party, it was a really kind gesture, and again, the feeling of just wanting to mark the occasion; to celebrate, took over!
today, then, is easter sunday - traditional dinner-day for my family - heading out to their house with my bo ... read more
Saturday 10 y
Beauty is an ecstasy; it is as simple as hunger.
There is really nothing to be said about it.
It is like the perfume of a rose: you can smell it and that is all
- W. Somerset Maugham
No change in weight today, either down or up, so, according to the rules...
Hope to also do liver cleanse tonight, though it will be late when iím home from work. Thereís a kind of celebration there tonight; thereíll be lots of fruit, biscuits, tea etc going round; in a very happy atmosphere too, which makes it all the more difficult.. i pray to God i can withstand it! Feeling strong now. Also, iím praying that iíll have the concentration to do my job correctly tonight, having not eaten all day (iíve gotta be on the ball; sharp-minded).
Anyway, all will be well ... read more
Friday 10 y
A thing of beauty is a joy forever: Its loveliness increases;
it will never pass into nothingness.
- John Keats
Another day, another pound gone. Thank God. Just exactly a pound. From 141 to 140.
Did a liver cleanse last night, but was practically gagging on the oil/citrus mix, and was on my own in my house last night, so i only managed to drink half of it. I was frightened iíd wake to nausea in the night, and vomit on my own, which i find very distressing!!!! : ) So i drank about 50mls oil only.
The next liver cleanse i do will be either saturday or sunday, and iím gonna try and make it a bigger one.
Anyway, all going to plan (my plan being outlined in my first blog)!
For me, it really i ... read more
Thursday 1st April! 10 y
"The pursuit of truth and beauty is a sphere of activity in which we are
permitted to remain children all our lives."
- Albert Einstein
Almost a week since i wrote, and i fell off the wagon at the weekend, but did a liver cleanse on tues. night, and fasted yesterday (just took water, some supplements and 3 capsules flax oil), and... still on track!!! woohoo! not that iím gonna break out again, but it feels gooooood.... down 3lbs today after fast yesterday.
by Ēstill on trackĒ, i mean iím fully on time according to my timeline, below. i was told i should be losing 4lb a wk, so thatís what iíve based it on.
easter time now, which is a very, very busy time for me, work-wise. Working like mad until Sunday afternoon. Bu ... read more
Friday 10 y
"Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great." - Mark Twain
Liver flush was fine last night. Slept peacefully through. This morning coffee enema.
Today i eat. Some protein. Plain fish, steamed, or a omelette. Should go with the fish, but will prob go omelette! No huge difference either way i think. Will eat this eve to give liver a chance to recover from cleanse. Drank a good amount of oil/juice! About 230ml: 150 juice and 80ml oil.
Low on energy this morning, and have kind of cramps in my legs; as if i had been pushing myself at yoga (though i havenít seen the studio door in a while!!!!) : ) Funny, itís just my le ... read more
Thursday 10 y
no nausea tonight, please : )!
Well, here we go.. liver flush no.2.. took the salts earlier, now time to make the yummy oily drink... : / !
but the benefits outweigh the momentary displeasure. And holding my nose as i drink the stuff really helps. my doc says a cup of warm, strong black coffee helps the drink to pass into the intestines comfortably - a few sips before and after the oil mix. if iím on my own doing my liver flush, i go with that!
hope weight has dropped tomorrow! and i hope to God that i donít wake in the night with waves of nausea! if i do, perhaps iíll log on here! : )
goodnight and God bless t ... read more
I am so happy : ) 10 y
ďWe are the music makers and we are the dreamers of dreams...Ē
-- Arthur O'Shaughnessy
Lost three pounds since yesterday! I am weighing myself every morning, and yesterday was 147.4 lb - my highest in a LONG time - but with my efforts, am down to 144.4 lb this morn.
It feels so great. My goal weight is 110 lb - my naturopath doctor says i should be 10-14% fat. At the moment iím 25%+, iíd say. Am 5 ft 5í tall.
I carry it quite well, but thereís no hiding the naked truth. Once when i was in with my doc, he pinched the fat on my lower arm, and said that when the body is putting fat on the limbs, itís really bad. My legs are pretty fat too. Doc said should be able to see t ... read more
Wednesday 10 y
łłł.ē*®`*ē☆The rivers and the oceans are wild,
and everywhere there is fun..
What a difference a liver cleanse makes!
Did my usual one last night:
fast 4hrs before taking one tbsp Epsom Salts 9pm,
juice of 1/2 grapefruit, 1/2 lemon, 1/2 lime + 80mls flax oil at 11pm.
I didnít quite finish my oil mixture - was scared that i would wake up to vomit during the night, as sometimes happens if i have been eating rubbish. Usually i make sure to stay over at my boyfriendís when iím doing a liver cleanse, but i was on my own in my apartment last night. I find it frightening to wake to consuming nausea! I think iím gonna die! :-0
But this only happens say 10% of ... read more
Tuesday 10 y
"I was glad when they said unto me, Let us go into the house of the LORD..." - Book of Psalms
Well since Sunday has been a disaster of junk food. Last night was just awful.
My boyfriend was working late, and travelling abroad to visit his parents very early this morning, so we agreed that after work last night he would ring, and i would go to his house for the night, ie before he flew out this morning.
Instead of that happening...uuuhhhgg... i ended up eating a chinese takeaway - very unlike me, but what on earth do they put in that stuff?! - and i requested no MSG - never felt so bad after it; so lay down on my bed at 9pm..
next thing i awoke to the buzzer in my apartment ... read more
Sunday 10 y
"we are free and we are from the stars"
Love to anyone who may read this.
Followed through on the liver cleanse last night, though i only took about 80mls flax oil in my citrus drink (that was all that was left in the bottle!)
Had some sharp-ish discomfort during the night, but this morning (though i couldnít hold in my coffee enema), feel fine. A little dehydrated, only.
So today is Sunday, and next liver cleanse is tomorrow, Monday. Resting tonight.
Reproduced below is an entry i posted last may, under a different name. I followed the same program then, but did not sustain it long enough to reach my goal. But this ... read more
Liver Flush to start me off! 10 y
"The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours." - Ayn Rand
Here goes. Just took epsom salts dose at 9pm. It tastes so disgusting! Will take oil at 11pm.
The liver cleanse recipe i was given (by my naturopath) is slightly different to those i have found here, though iíve only skimmed all the info available on this site. Anyway, iíve been using it periodically since i was 17 (23yrs old now), and it has worked really well each time.
It goes like this:
do not eat for 4 hrs before cleanse.
2hrs before bed-time, eg. 9pm, take 1 dessertspoon epsom salts, dissolved in warm water (SO DISGUSTING!!!! sorry!).
Just before bed-time, eg. 11pm, juice (b ... read more