Day 8 of Water Fast
My daily Journey to a healthier life style
Date: 4/21/2011 4:33:29 PM ( 10 y ) ... viewed 1326 times
April 4, 2011
Monday, Monday Monday! I didn't want to get out of bed, as I didn't get to bed until after 2:30 a.m. I was really restless, probably due to my nap. Well, I started to fret a bit about the guy and wondering what he might be doing, since he is a night owl, and plays pool late, so that is where my thoughts went again. And again. I started missing them, then I started wondering who he might be talking to, and then I realized how he might be happy to get away from me. Yeah, so I was feeling really down, before I went to bed.
So when my alarm went off, I just laid there with Mekong on me. I enjoyed her warmth and how she snuggles against my neck and snuffs in my ear at times. It kind of grounded me in realizing that I am loved, at least by my cats. I reminded myself that animals are good judge of character, and if I was such a horrible, hateful person, then my cats would strive to get away from me.
Finally, I got up and got ready for work at 8:25 a.m., which is quite late for me, as I don't like to feel rushed while getting ready for work. It takes me 15 minutes to drive to work, so laying in bed until 8:30 a.m., only gives me 15 minutes to get everything done by 8:45 a.m. At least it wasn't too cold, that I had to warm up my car before hand. What a lovely way to start a Monday. GAH!
Work was busy, which I always like. It is nice with it is busy but not too busy, which is always perfect. The situation with the office has died down a bit, so I am not as stress out regarding that as I was. I guess the more the Senior attorney talks about it the more I get nervous. It was pretty quiet about it so far, but that doesn't mean that it might not pick back up during the week. I hope not.
While I was at work, I started feeling a little bit off, but it wasn't a nauseous feeling. It is hard to explain, that I just didn't feel myself for some reason. I didn't have a ketone strip to test with me, but I could see that my urine was frothy as normal, so I knew that I was burning ketones. My tongue still looks like a little fuzzy animal in my mouth. Nasty, but I know it is part of the process. I think the off-ness probably had to do that I was really tired and around 2:00 p.m., I really wanted to curl up on the floor next to my desk and go to sleep. Of course, I couldn't do that, so I just moved around a lot to keep myself more awake then normal.
After work, I really wanted to go home and go to sleep, but I knew that if I did that, I would throw off my sleep scheduled, so I went over to Christy's as I normally do, and I knew that she would keep me awake LOL. Even if I fell asleep, she probably would allow me to sleep a bit. LOL. Well, I didn't fall asleep over there and I had a really good time. We watched movies as normally, and we talked a lot about things. About our friendship, and how she helped me when I was struggling with a lot of emotional issues and abuse issues when I was living at home. Christy told me that by listening to me, she was able to cope with her own issues, she was dealing with. I was really surprised at this, because during out teenage years, I depended on her help me through things more then I was able to help her. I never knew how much I was able to help her. It was really nice to know. We talked about so many memories, and all the things we did as teenagers together. As her Grandmother (who raised her, as she grew up knowing this was her mother, and found out when she was older, she was her grandmother) would say “They were up all night 'A-tee-hee-hee-ing and ha-ha-ha-ing'”. I remember many times on a weekend, she would come pounding on Christy's door in the middle of the night, telling us to go to bed, as we were laughing too loud or making too much noise. LOLOL. Ahhhh, those were the days.
Once again I didn't get home until late, but I think it was a good thing, because I was really ready to go, once I got my other “routine” stuff out of the way. Mekong was sure happy to have me home (Of course), but I realized that I will have to spend a little bit more time at home, so that way my kitties don't feel neglected. I don't want that. I am just really trying to keep my mind busy and off of the guy.
While I was laying in bed, I was checking out my body, and realized how skinny I was feeling. Other then the little fatty lump on my lower abdomen, my legs, especially my arms, my hip area is looking and feeling very slender. I have to say that I feel really good about it, especially when it made me think about how much I weighed back in November. My mind went to thinking about the guy a bit, but I shook it from my head, knowing that it would do me no good to dwell on something I can change. I must really dive that home, regardless how much my heart might miss him I NEED to overcome this feeling of defeat, disappointment and rejection, due to his choice, as well as my own.
The last thoughts I had before I did finally fall asleep were that God does have plans for me, even if I don't know what they are at this time. I MUST have faith in Him.
EXERICISE: walked 1.27 Miles,
WATER INTAKE: 37 ounces of water
WEIGHT: 116 pounds
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