can cause holiday angst, even ex-in-laws, and how vibr8 finds the strength to transcend it all
Date: 11/19/2006 2:23:59 PM ( 15 y ) ... viewed 1705 times
It's holiday time in America once again, and a lovely time of year for those whose lives are arranged so very perfectly that holiday get-togethers are enjoyable from start to finish.
Some people ignore the holidays altogether, going on long hikes, or parachuting in the desert, or whatever distracting enjoyable escape they have created for themselves over the years.
Many disagree with the basic premise on which this upcoming holiday, Thanksgiving, is based. Certainly giving thanks is a great principle and in fact an admirable spiritual focus. However the whole idea that an entire nation should still celebrate the Pilgrims sharing a peaceful meal with the "Indians", when mass genocide is in fact what followed this peaceful meal, over many many years, has become a bit preposterous.
Why celebrate that? Most "Indians" don't.
There are "Indians" a few generations back in the family of my former hubby. I only met one of them. He was a pleasant person to spend the holidays with. However, he passed on decades ago. There are still many ex-in-laws left on the other side of ex-hubby's family, though.
It's been so many years since the end of that marriage, it makes no sense that ex-in-laws would reappear on the scene to be an unmistakeably dark cloud upon the upcoming holiday season. Yet it has happened.
I know that the answer is to wish them well, energetically surround them with light, and let go of the whole thing as much as possible.
However, what's happening with the timing of it all is that there's a little bit of new material coming through almost every day.
Very very negative material about events that happened almost 20 years ago. Material that does not need to be dredged up for any reason, really. Lots of therapists have profited hugely helping yours truly and many other humans in the family sphere through the times before and after that divorce.
Amends have been made all the way around, and there has been peace in the family for many years.
It is unclear to me exactly who is dredging it all up now, or why. I may never know.
It has been hard for me to wish them all well, but I have been trying. A lot of the time lately I am in tears. This stuff coming up again has caused me to feel infinitely sad and alone. It is deeply painful.
I know that I am lucky to have many profoundly healing and strengthening alternative health modalities available to me, for trades, or for affordable rates. Money is low, so I need those affordable rates and trades more than ever right now.
It's hard to get straightened out when you're in a bit of a tailspin.
I know I can. I know I have the strength within me to get through this.
I am so thankful for curezone. The cleanses, the raw foods experiences many of you so generously share, and the meditative information, all of it is incredibly helpful for me right now. When I visit CureZone I can feel your strength.
What all of you are giving here means a lot to me.
So, as the holidays begin, there is indeed something to be thankful for, and that's you.
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