Changing my life.
goals for myself
Date: 1/30/2006 5:03:07 PM ( 17 y ) ... viewed 2474 times
So it happened again! I seem to always say tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow and this morning I was starting fresh, well it started out that way anyway. I was in the middle of trying to start this blog this am I had company show up with nasty food. So the rest of the evening I will try to eat better and continue on tomorrow.
Ok so where do I start? umm well Im 33 and was veg/vegan for about 8 years and haven't been for I think 5 now. I felt really great when I ate that healthy and only slept 5 or 6 hours a night. I had so much energy and didn't feel anything like I feel now. About 5 years ago I went away and was really sick and didn't realize at the time it was a parasite. I progressively felt worse and worse until I had a hard time getting outta bed to move to the couch hahaha. I laugh but its true. I went to a doc and they said I needed to lose weight and get on a schedule, I had gained probably 60 or 70lbs and wasn't eating that badly. I really decided to make a change when I was driving across the country and thought I was having a heart attack! We stopped at a hospital and was hooked up to all kinds of machines. They didn't no what it was but it wasn't a heart attack or a stroke or anything so they sent me on my way and said if it happens again stop at the next hospital!! About a month later I went to a naturopath and found out it was a parasite and a few other things were going on from having it so long. I had a hair analysis done and found out my minerals were really low. I guess what was happening is the parasite (s?) were taking all the nutrients which made me eat more and I would still get no nutrients. I have all kinds of food allergy's now and Im working on getting my metabolism going.
I have been trying to lose weight and get healthier but seem to sabotage it every time. I think because I ate so healthy for so long that i can find fault with almost everything i eat and think well since its not organic or its not raw or im allergic to it what does it really matter if I drink this beer and eat pizza - not exactly but you get what i mean.
Also I dont really understand what is going on I used to do a lot of drugs and drink alot and now drink once in awhile. I would think that would help me feel better.
I went back to school and am trying to start my own business but I never seem to have the energy to do the extra things everyday.. I should have more done then I have but I dont have the motivation well and lack of $$$$ at the moment!!
So my goals for now are I would like to eventually eat 100% raw but now I cant really afford it. Right now I have alot organic food that isnt raw and I cant afford to throw it out or give it away. So Im hoping to eat what i have and get rid of it and go raw once its gone. I have a deadline that I have set for myself for my business, having things like promotional stuff, business cards etc done for the beginning of april. By that time I would like to feel and look better and between now and then have the energy and the focus to get things finished!!!!
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