DAY 30!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wooooooooo-hoooooooo!!!!
I am now having to face my ultimate fear: being the subject of men's attention! Ah!
Date: 5/7/2006 8:48:31 AM ( 17 y ) ... viewed 2675 times
Day 30!!! Lalalaaaa! Day 30!!! Lalalaaa!
Okay. That's out of my system.
So I have had to face something that I have been hiding behind the fat: Guys are looking at me, and it scares me! So I am afraid of being vulnerable. I was a wallflower in high-school and I hid behind the fat.
Yesterday, I wore a black dress that's very low cut. I went to the department store to get a food processor (so I can eat raw meals when I begin eating again). Every man would walk circles around me and kept looking at me...even the ones pushing their kids around in buggies looking for Mother's Day gifts!!! Ew!
But I have NEVER been checked out before! I used to always hide behind baggy clothes, because 1. I was fat, and 2. I have a large chest.
However, now I am becoming shapely and svelt. I am entering into a territory I have never been before. Now I have to learn to cope. I am used to being super-guarded, never letting anyone "in".
*sigh* It's not a bad problem to have, just unknown to me.
On a slightly different note, my Bible study teacher was telling me how great I look. She noted how clear and glowing my skin looks.
I feel very pretty!
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