My daily Journey to a healthier life style

Date:   3/23/2011 2:34:19 PM ( 15 y ago)

March 22, 2011

It is hard to keep any routine right now, other then taking a shower and brushing my teeth constantly. Anything other then feeding my cats, I just don't have the energy to do or feel “good” enough in my body to try and accomplish.

I am really struggling with this water fast right now. I feel like death warmed over all the time. I am planning on buying some veggies to juice or even boil (to make into broth) so that way I can still continue on the fast. I have sipped a little bit of cranberry juice to slow down the detoxification but it doesn't seem to help much, as I think it is because I am not drinking enough of it. I just don't want to flood by body with something sugary. I just want to halt the ketones a bit.

Sleeping is hard and I haven't been sleeping well at all. I know that it is mostly due to my fasting, but also my mind struggles regarding someone that I told myself that I wouldn't mention anymore. I have been doing EFT anytime I feel emotionally or start thinking about him with someone else. It is quite amazing as it really just wipes out the intense emotion that had been rising. I believe that it has been helping me a bit with my water fasting.

I am really trying to stick this out, but I feel like death! I smell and the acetone smell is horrible as well. It is almost like I can't live with myself anymore. My tongue is so nasty that I can't brush my teeth enough to get any peace from the awful taste that is there.

I have prayed a bit as well as talked to God about various things, but it is hard when the only thing that is on my mind is how I am feeling. I honestly due to a particular guy (that I won't name), the death feeling which was fitting a couple days ago is not really fitting for me now, as my mind is survival mode because I feel so horrible. All I can think is that I want it to stop. And I know that I can halt it with just eating something solid. Actually, I know that it isn't that quick, but after a couple days of re-feeding, I would feel 10 times better. But that is not what I want at the moment.

At work, I am restless. I get up out of my chair to just move around and then I feel so tired that I have to sit down again. And one thing I have noticed since I feel ill/achy, that when I am not feeling well, I tend to touch my face more. I usually run my hand over my cheek, for some reason, like it will sooth the feelings that I am having. I just noticed that I have been doing it more and more, as the detoxification symptoms are getting stronger.

When I got home, all I did is crawl in bed. I felt like I was dying, but I knew that this is normal. I didn't even go to the grocery store and get veggies. The aching-ness is not far enough a part, that I don't think I would last going to the grocery store. I probably would walk in and then walk straight back out to my car, because my body wants to rest. Yeah, I don't think it is a good idea to go, when I probably will want to just lay down on the floor. LOL

I just have to be strong! I am trying so hard, but I don't know how much longer I can last.

EXERICISE: walked 2.50 Miles,

WATER INTAKE: 36 ounces of water

WEIGHT: 117 pounds




 

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