i will never understand how something in such a pretty and petite package can
cause so much emotion inside of me.I haven't felt this way in a long time and it
really shakes me at the core...it's exciting and enticing though,it frightens the
hell out of me.I can sense she has an emotional intelligence that far surpasses my own,
I think that's what frightens me most,the mad scientist forever living in his head,
my theories of love,life and creativity but then again she rules the physical
realm,the realm of passion ,emotions and desire.I have a strong sense about her the
first time I met her and she just seemed to emanate though feelings about her.
I can tell she communicates through the world through her feelings,while I with my
intuition and thoughts.same but different I guess.
i am going to buy her a teddy bear for valentines day and savor the warm feelings
while molesting her in my mind lol.
in the past I have enjoyed having the control,creating feelings of lust and attraction in others while remaining blissfully detached and free..oblivious to the pain I may have caused them,maybe all this anxiety is a sub-conscious reaction,maybe
of guilt? fearing that what comes around goes around? bah,so be it..
it makes me feel alive,the good and the bad..bring it on..I have risked my life
doing the most ridiculous things in life,just for the rush..
what's the worst that can happen? a broken heart? so be it,it's better then
feeling nothing or to have never love/lusted before.
besides,there is another cutie in accounting I have been eyeing for the past
few weeks as well..no rings on her finger lol.