hi everyone! i've been reading your messages for a couple of days now and i too am suffering on the same problem. it's nice that even though you personally don't know each other, you seem to understand each other.(but having this "diseazzze" is really not NiCe) i just want to,(at last!), tell somebody that i have a problem and i've got to admit that i have a problem. i just don't know how to say it to my family, because it would seem to be such a shame to have me. i am fighting to survive each day and knowing other people are enduring it too gives me courage. i can't help myself and maybe i can't help you either in finding the "right" solution but i'm here to understand your pain, our pain. I pray for all of us and to those who judge us.