Happy Birthday! How do you feel about turning 50? I also turned 50 on Friday!

I feel comfortable with it... with myself. I do want to make some significant changes though. Life is too short to go through it half alive, as I have been. I've been viewing the world through the dirty glasses of excess toxins, excess weight, and excess fear of the judgement of others.

I lost my job last June. I haven't been able to find another one. But its been a good thing. For years I've been putting more stress on myself than I could handle, working long and hard to prove that I was worthy. I've gained 50-60 lbs, gotten very foggy headed, and finally sprouted an itchy rash all over my body.

Since then I have been back and forth to a dermatologist, an herbalist and an alergist. I've tried medicines, ointments, herbs and diet. Nothing helped. My own research brought me to the MC. The rash went away shortly after I began the MC, and yesterday, which was day 8, it came back. I'm hoping this is the toxin release stage.

I'm using this time to put my house in order, literally and figuratively and to begin a healing process. I got rid of over half of the stuff in my house: half the clothes, half the books, etc. I've been finishing all the unfinished, organizing and streamlining. I've been walking, doing yoga, weight training, and playing volley ball and tennis. If I can lose some weight, I hope to be able to run again, which I love. I've also been doing as much with music as I can, which I find more healing and uplifting than anything.

So I'm comfortable with turning 50 because I've come to a point at which I care more about myself than I do about others' opinion of me. My own happiness lies inside of me. It's in the harmony between my body, mind, heart, and soul.

The message my 50 year old self want to convey is: "No more garbage!".

How has it been for you?