Yeah, sometimes I feel like that too... afraid of "getting caught"!
But for the most part, I've grown to accept myself (duh... I'm drinking myself! :-)
Drinking one's own urine is an act of Divinity. The more we perfect our bodies in health, the closer we move towards God.
Luckily for me, I am with people who are VERY open-minded. Although they do not practice Shivambu, they do not shun my practice of it. They look at it with curiosity and asks lots of questions, but never degrading. I'm blessed.
Everyone in my family knows about it. They all lovingly think I'm nuts, but everytime the flu season hits, I'm always the "last man standing"... knock on wood! I don't preach, but gently remind them that it's not a coincidence EVERY time!
If you "Out" yourself and are out in the open about it with your family, you'll feel liberated! It's true! While you may suffer ridicule and contempt from the ignorant, the Truth will set you FREE!! Wheeeeeeeee!
But timing is everything... so exercise wise discernment and let Spirit be your guide.
Hi Pee Jay,
First of all, I sincerely apologize for taking forever and 2 days for responding to you. Just like everyone else, I've been sooooo swamped at work. (I lead a fairly normal life, except that I drink all of my pee, stare into the sun, and eat raw chocolate and goji berries all day. :-)
I agree with your counselor about living an integrated life... but it doesn't mean you have to be wide open about everything to everyone. You can be discreet and open up to people as you are intuitively guided to. Follow your intuition and be very discerning about who you open up to... Opening up too fast to too many people could leave you in a vulnerable position, and even a compramised position. Be careful, but do include people into your "real" life. It's nice to have a circle of friends/family members that are your knit core group that you know will be supportive of you, no matter what! Hopefully you can already have that, and if not, it's never too late to develop one. These are people that you should be able to share your hopes, dreams and aspirations without fear of judgement, rebuttal and rejection.
As far as memory is concerned, my memory is pretty good... rather, I can remember anything I choose to put my attention to long enough... granted that I was sufficiently interested in the memory I'm recalling. IOW, if I didn't pay attention to it the first time, then it's gone... But I'm not sure if UT has anything to do with that, but with all the nutrients in the urine, it probably does!
Hope everything works out well for you, and that you choose wisely on who you include in your "secret". :-) Shiva is a Hindu God, and Shivambu is the act of drinking the waters of Shiva, Uropathy.
p.s. I hope I do as good of a job raising my children as you have... although, I have to admit, I do permit them to say "bad" words, simply because I allow them to explore at home rather than have to be secretive about it. Also, instead of "sh*t", how about "crap"... and explain it's a dice game.
You can improve the taste of your urine with a "pristine" diet.
This means to stick to raw fruits and vegetables, and some nuts, and plenty of clean fresh water.
My urine is fairly tasteless to me, and I don't get the "amonia breath" anymore since going on a raw food diet.
One-half day of water fasting will clear up your urine enough so that it's the taste is no longer objectionable. If you drink only your urine and water all through the day and introduce no other foods or drinks, then your urine will clear up.
Once your urine clears up, (neither too acidic nor too salty), then try adding raw agave nectar. You'll be amazed at how delicious it is.
If it smells bad or tastes bad, then don't drink it.
Save the first urine of the day if it's too powerful for you to drink. Instead, save it and age it for about a week minimum, and massage it directly into your skin. Continue to save your urine for this purpose, and don't use up all of it, so that in a year from now, you'll have 1-year old urine to massage with.
You can store urine indefinitely. The older the better... topically.
I have some that's almost a year old... I have a friend that has some over 1.5 years old... ages like fine wine.