This is my near death experience. I would like to get some responses from people who had the same experience. It wasn't pleasant, if wasn't terrifying or life changing. It was just nothing.
A year back I attempted to commit suicide by slicing open my forearms. I laid in a bathtub, made the cuts and watched the blood jet out underwater. It was very melancholy, and frightening at first. But I was very relaxed after I let go.
Everything went black. It was nothingness in the purest sense. I ceased to be, the world ceased to be. It was just all over, transaction complete.
The next thing I know I'm in a pool of my own blood and evidently shit and vomit. Then I'm in an ambulance and it was just bright and weird. Its all just flashes, nothing really coherent. When I got to the hospital I got a blood transfusion since I lost nearly half the blood in my body. 60 stitches later and a week of me not being able to stand without passing out, I was getting back to normal physical health.
It was all together the most surreal experience of my life and I still have trouble dealing with it. No one came to greet me, I didn't feel any supreme love or peace. I didn't find any all understanding knowledge of the world, and I didn't get any solace. I just felt sad.
I have been searching the internet for anyone else who could relate, since that would help a lot.