I was doing this meditation, and when it said imagine that God is talking to you, I could feel this great force around me and in me giving me ideas. Want to write it down now so I do not forget. It said that there is a light and I have not seen it yet. I took it to be both an illuminating light that you see when you reach a state higher than enlightenment and a light that could help me make new discoveries as an inventor. It said there is a force that is good, happy, righteous, that things are good, happy, righteous, and I should be good, happy, and righteous too. Things are sunny and joyous and should be sunny and joyous. I am writing the ideas backwards. There were three or four ideas and I just wrote the last two. Can't remember the ideas before it, but I had a revelation to fast to express my faith and love to God, to show my humility through action.
Today I also learned a little about my Chinese culture. I learned that in China, you cannot give advice to your elderly. You cannot talk back to them. I knew it before and didn't accept it, but today I realized that I need to conform and respect my parents' culture or I won't have a good time living with them. I won't survive living with them. I learned this from talking to my Chinese neighbor.
I wanted God to talk to me again and it said just be good, be true, do not be too good/be artful with men who want your heart, do not show them in to your life, or you could get pregnant, but you do not want to be pregnant. There is this thing of the world, and what a powerful, precious, subtle, cool thing that I (God) welcome and embrace with all my thoughts and heart and will and being. You embrace it too to make you powerful beyond all measures, and be cool about it, don't be mean not sharing with other people. Be welcoming, be flowing, be virtuous, let it seep in to you and unblock all your channels. Let you seep in to others and unblock their channels. Be grateful (I see flowers symbolizing this). Be content, be harmonious, be gest-y, press your hands in to the sand of this power, in to this warm powerful liquid (I feel it in my fingers), today, you are free. You are powerful beyond measure. You are dubious of my effects. Oh enlightened one, be powerful (I feel heat in my body), be cool, be zen, be gest-y, be grateful, and above all, be propriety. I leave you with warm embrace and good graces. Use them (the graces) well. There is a force. Feel the force.