Been feeling pretty depressed the past few days. I feel like I am nearly rock bottom now. I had just quit my job earlier this week because I've been treated pretty bad there, and finally had the courage to just quit, but now because I don't have a job and regular routine to go to, I just mope around all day and regretting that I probably shouldn't have quit yet. Other then the job I also have a host of other health problem that no one knows how to treat exactly, and over the past few days, after seeing an eye doctor, my vision is slightly blurred and this worry that my eyes is getting worse only contributes to my depression.

It's like everything is falling on me right now (health, work/career), if my health can get miraculously better I know I can get my spirits up and conquer anything I set my heart to.

Damn it, last week I was still in good spirits, and now I feel hopefuless. My heart aches, head hurts all day, and I feel ice cold.

But I have a goal: finish my portfolio by next month, try to fix my health (it's quite complicated and long term) hopefully with no side effect, and move to asia by the end of next month. If I can't get this done, I think I'll be forever miserable...

Thanks for reading..