How to cope with recognitions.
I am new here, prompted to join because of the reason below - I am hoping someone on here can help please?
I'm a little shook up after returning from Greece today - I've kind of blurted it all out below, I am sorry, I just need to get it out there, but I am obviously asking for some help. I am not sure it's a past life session, more like I need help on how to stop these connections affecting me. I am married to the most wonderful man, yet I meet people and recognise them and the attraction is SO intense, it's caused me and all involved a lot of pain. Can you help me gain some control over this? I feel I need to explain - it's a long story but I will try and cut it short.
Eight years ago - I met someone I had an instant recall of, down to our names, ages, locations - all verified. I was so in shock I left my long term relationship for him (even before we had spoken!) only to find I was in love with who he was 400 years ago - we cut the cords together and then I met my husband - the day after! We (husband, this person and I) are all good friends to this day. This occurrence led me from non -believing to training as a past life regressionist.
Three years ago I had met someone who I had an incredibly strong mutual recognition with, (which made the former pale in comparison) for me that was followed by remembering a succession of lives, and huge synchronicity - some of which he experienced. It messed with my head so much that is why I moved back to London - to get some space from my marriage whilst I worked through it all. In short though I ended up in an "emotional affair" with this man, until he finally met my husband, at which point he kind of expelled himself from my life. That was a year and a half ago - and we met up to kind of say goodbye about a month or so ago - it was a very strained and awkward meeting - which kicked off more synchronicity for me, and I contacted him about it - and it blew up into an emotional drama ( which seems to be the pattern)- I decided it was time to cut the cords, and I did - no other relationship has had me through the coals like this one. Yet I was healing well enough to be moving back in with my husband in three days, then ...
I've just spent the week in Greece with my mum, she is almost an ex pat in a community there and she took me for the first time, she introduced me to someone and bang! It happened again - I haven't had spontaneous recall, but I think I am trying to block it. We spent a night together the three of us, chatting, laughing, just like any "normal" interaction ( except my mum told me it was obvious there were strong feelings between us) I mentioned my marriage to him and we connected on Facebook. We kissed on the cheeks ( greek culture) when it was time to go, he said "I'll see you tomorrow" and I said "yes". I didn't see him tomorrow, well I did, but no interaction - his taxi stand is opposite where we would hang out - and he was busy talking to another girl by his taxi when we were there (brief moment). The next night he wasn't there at all. Last night was our last night and he was there all night, as were we, but he was busy taxing and hanging out with his buddies - weird things happened where we constantly just missed each other, we were just constantly out of sync - but he made no effort to come and talk to me, and just left without saying hello, goodbye, anything. The pain I felt at that was out of proportion, it has floored me, really upset me (I do think it's brought up all the unhealed stuff of the one previous as well, which has been the most immense and challenging one of all). Apparently he came back after I left (my mum's taxi friend told her) and then this morning I was fantasising about him turning up in a taxi at the airport and telling myself not to be stupid - anyway - his taxi ended up following ours all the way to the airport - and turned off just before.
I'm shaken up by this current happening (which also feels like it's bringing up the unhealed stuff of the other one as well) and the move back in with my husband into our new home on Wednesday. It's supposed to be a completely new fresh start. I am refraining messaging this man on Facebook, just like I am refraining getting caught up in a dynamic with the one before, but I just can't go on like this. My husband doesn't deserve it and I can't cope with it.
Is there something I can do to be able to deal with this all?
So sorry for the long message, I just had to explain why it's not a past life session I am after - it's how to cope with the recognitions and the wisdom to work it through without harm to myself or the others involved that I am after.
I wonder if anyone on this forum can help with this?