Published: 16 years ago
Re: I embarrass my boyfriend...
"I always thought I was a strong confident person and now I feel defeated and pathetic." You are feeling defeated and pathetic because you HAVE been defeated and "pathetic" is what he has made you believe that you SHOULD be feeling.
"Am I blowing this out of proportion?" Are you kidding? NO! You're not blowing it out of proportion - your instincts are SCREAMING at you to step back and take a look at what's happening to your Self (your own Life's Spark).
"I just feel like he can't love me if I'm not that size 2 again and I'm resentful that he seems so superficial." He "can't" love you because he WON'T love you, size 2 or not. He "seems so superficial" because he IS superficial.
Molly Bloom and Beentheredonethat have offered you some most excellent insight and suggestions. Listen to your HEAD and not your HEART, honey. And, while you're at it, visit this site, read, learn, and GROW STRONG!!!
Regardless of the website title, it is a valuable resource to help women drag themselves OUT of victim status and into the status of a strong, wise, cynical, self-assured, self-possessed, and independent woman.
Best wishes to you.