Re: One more message to Honeybeah

It's ok to sound like my mother...my mother would be saying the same things to me.

As far as my old posts...I'm not sure what I wrote in all of them...eek! The fasting started after I met him online. It was four months before I met him in person so by that time I had sufficiently starved myself down to a size 4-6. That image was all he knew of me...but in reality I've been overweight all my life. It's hard now because I've always excepted the way I was/am, I have lots of friends, was popular in school etc., nobody around me cared how big I was. I know how to change it and if at the time I don't have the motivation then thats my problem.

I'm glad so many people posted, thank you all. I guess I needed others to confirm what I'm already thinking. I'm just young enough yet to think that if I don't succeed at this relationship I'm a failure/it just might be the end of the world. (Even though my rational mind knows it/I won't be)

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