I will type and complain til the cows come home online but in person have fun trying to get a peep out of me lol.I am not a very good talker and I tend to talk less about my feelings and spend more time pushing peoples buttons or alienating them in general.
I think I will start boxing here coming monday,and do it monday through friday-
this includes intense weight training and upping my cals more,which means getting off
the warrior diet for a while.I missed the placement tests for this semester for school and will have to wait til friggin' spingtime.
so boxing will have to do til then,i think it'll help me cope alot better then just cooping myself up in my room drinking and sleeping all the time,plus it'll give me a chance to hang out with other knuckle heads that are into macho shit like i am so it's all good.Sometimes you have to not only toughen your heart with kindness but toughen your body as well..i just have been so lazy and blah lately or just trying to get laid...pretty sure I'll get a girl here soon,nothing serious but someone just to have around and make me feel good as well as her,not like theres a real shortage of females at work- lol...
i'll just work out a little more and wear tight fitting shirts,pretty sure someone will pick up the bait rofl.
in summary,about my original post..i fail to see any real genuine traits of myself that others would see as attractive nor do i understand why someone would actually want to 'know me',especially females.i just don't see anything in me thats attractive or appealing.i mean,I do have a young looking pretty boy face kinda rough around the edges and a tight body..but all that is just BS,because inside I am so fubar'd.I can see the things in others I like and attracted to,but when it comes to myself..I fail to see what exactly i have to offer someone else.just thinking outloud..not expecting an answer to any of this lol..