I have not had an NDE, but I am very interested in the topic.
Many of us has read or heard about the "bright light and love" from others.
What bothered me was this, 'If everybody, no matter what their character was, gets to go to heaven, then why must I follow Christ and his teachings? Why do I have to have good ethics?"
But thankfully, I have read some where the not-so-good people did not see the light. After coming back, many became very religious. One such person is Howard Storm who wrote the book "My Descent into Death".
It's a short book and a great read.
The reason I say "thankfully" is that to be a good Christian takes a lot of work. And I don't want my work to go in vain.
Now about suicide. I don't know if this happens to all suicides, but here is quote from one woman's experience.
Where was I? I was immersed in darkness. My eyes seemed to adjust, and I could see clearly even though there was no light. The darkness continued in all directions and seemed to have no end, but it wasn't just blackness, it was an endless void, an absence of light. It was completely enveloping.
I swung my head around to explore the thick blackness and saw, to my right, standing shoulder to shoulder, a handful of others. They were all teenagers.
"Oh, we must be the suicides."
With a laugh, I opened my mouth, but before I could form the words, they came tumbling out. I wasn't sure whether I had thought the words or had attempted to say them, but they were audible without my having to move my lips. Then I wasn't sure if these other people had heard me, until the guy next to me responded.
He didn't say a word to me. He slowly looked down at me and turned forward again. There was absolutely no expression on his face, no warmth or intelligence in his eyes. Suspended in darkness, he and all the others stood fixed in a thoughtless stupor.