umm,actually I did read the entire thing but i was late for work and had to get my
thoughts out before it left my plane of thought (?)
I don't know,I am going to the strip club tonight to regain my nuevos lol.
It's been awhile since I have seen a nekid chick in real life so maybe that'll
snap my head out of my ass lol.I know I have issues but the cure is about as
far away as getting laid,falling asleep with my head between some hot girl and
waking up with the scent of warm moist fawked cooter under my nose..that is
really the only cure for me and my insecuritys,nothing more nothing less.
Screw counseling and the %§#&!ß-.I call them all whores because in the past and
even know it never took me too much to get any action as well as luring them
away with enticement,it seems as if I have created my own web of %§#&!ß-and
non-sense that will eat me up alive in the end and now i guess i have to live
through it somemore before I realize the lesson in all of this.
As far as this girl goes whatever happens it will happen in due time being that
fate has brought us this far,fate will bring us further together if it was meant to be.I don't believe in fate of destiny really but things do happen for a reason...
in a way ,I do want to be this caring and faithfull,good guy to her a part of me just
wants to f**k her sideways and every which way til monday,then just treat her
like I would any girl in my life.Shitty ,yet ohh soooooo swwwweet lol.
I know I am an %§#&!ß-,right? no,not really..maybe,maybe so.