You know, you're like Hamlet in that you go on and on about what's on your mind for eons without and notice of action - in your posts anyway. It's as if your replies are another blog post about this gal. I'm sure it feels nice to get it all down, but I am curious whether you are considering some of the content in Molly's posts. She does have several good points. Of course you'd have to search for a shrink as smart as and more emotionally advanced than you in order for them to be able to help, but this is possible.
Law of Attraction (which I've seen you dabble in) is good for many things, but it's not so easy for someone with intense conflicts to just decide to change thoughts. I agree with Molly in that there is more real work. Care to share your thoughts on this? You want to fix this stuff? What's your PLAN?