well,I talked to her today...it was scary at first but in the end,it went pretty well.I notice that my feelings felt sheltered and cautious,they were familiar yet
strangely foriegn to me,I was worried that my usual negative state would rubb off on her,but it didn't.f**k this anlylizing %§#&!ß-,I like her and that is that..if I f**k up then I f**k up and that's all that matters,I'd rather f**k up trying then
not to try at all..I like her,it doesn't have to be all theatricals and music but I
know how I feel,in the mist of all the confusing and non-sensual thoughts constantly in my mind,for once in my life there was a certain calmness that was present,not sure
what it was but it was there and it felt good.i was wrong about her,she is even more
beautiful up close then she was from afar and even sweeter then I thought she would be ...I was going to never talk to her again but I decided to take the chance anyways..