Sorry you don't like it, but the reason you are attracted to a much younger person is because of your low maturity level - people are attracted to others with the same maturity level, as well as the same mental and emotional illnesses to play them out, but not cure them...got it? Let me remind you of your own nasty comments:
"not only did I just sleep with her but she also confessed her 'true feelings' for me,as if we were meant for each other or something lol." LOL!
"I told her that though I liked her it really isn't what she thought it was..
whoops,I guess my coming on so strongly she mistook it for something else,as if I wanted her so badly or something lol..umm,I like her but not 'that' much." LOL!
"I was right,I just don't like her the way I used to
anymore,not sure why but it all just went awayin the beggining I was the one that was so obessessed over her and all this non-sense,but in the end it turned out to be her -the one that got hurt and wanted me so badly lol."LOL!
"She should have I am so over her,she could croak in her sleep for all I care lol." LOL!
"now what? am I supposed to care? My feelings are as fleeting as the sunlight in an alasakan winter" LOL?
"be it attention,affection,desire or lust and when I felt as if I got it,my feelings go away.but at the first sign of trouble I bailed lol." LOL!
Lot's of "lol" here for such an unhappy guy.
I'm sure gf would be proud to hear all you have to say about having sex with her, especially the "croak in her sleep" remark...see what I mean about immaturity?
The truth is that only a desperate woman who doesn't like herself would have sex with someone she doesn't really know on the first date. See why you two found each other ? It's not about love or caring, but your own issues. Got it? You put yourself and your issues up for grabs here, and that includes her. Got it?
Lastly, it's clear why you are so unsuccessful in relationships...YOU DON'T LISTEN!!!! I'm sure gf doesn't appreciate this, also.
All you want to do is whine "I'm such an %¤#&!§-...POOR ME!" Wouldn't it be a relief to know it's all biological?
You can go on, angry and frustrated and unloved, for the rest of your life, or you can spend $20 and 2 weeks on saw palmetto and change your life forever for the better. You sound like you'd rather revel in your unhappiness.