...actually the 'anger' or what little of it I have left is the only thing
that is really holding me back in relationships.
I know that and am working on it.
it's not like I flip out over every last thing she does,I am actually
pretty laid back and detached most of the time.Kinda like whatever
whatever but some things do really urke me.
I know I am not a bad person and I am cool with it,no one is perfect by
Most of the time I lost my cool was because either I was really in a bad mood,
hungry or just in a very bad state and I took whatever she said totally wrong.
We talked through alot of things and she understands that it's nothing personal
against her and it's just me and my own issues.Thankfully she isn't quick to
jump the gun (like most people) and still stick by my side,I know she sees
the good in me because though I may not show it all the time,she knows there
is plenty more to me then just 'my anger' or whatever.
She is very sweet and kind,has a very big heart and that's what attracts me
most to her.You wanna know about honesty? she is the one that tells me like
it is and even said to me to change my ways or else she WILL leave me.
We have been through alot together in such a short period of time and I will
be forever greatful for everything that has happened thus far.Just because
I have issues now doesn't mean that I will have them forever and just because
there is some difficulty now with some of my behaviors doesn't mean that
they will be forever either.
Unlike before where I'd just act out and scape goat on things (I am bipolar,
I am what I am etc.) I am willing to face the issues head on and deal with them
in real time..instead of just writing about it or trying to solve them
'in my head'.