I am not sure if it was because I care so deeply about her was the reason behind
me feeling so afraid of losing her or becoming jealous.
Thinking back,I was a fool to have become or feel so jealous in the first place.
With a full nights of sleep,a full stomach and clear mind it becomes
less and less of an issue.
It just seems like when stressed and out of it so to speak,
the smallest things seem to just trip me up..
I had a suspicion that it has more to do with my moods or bad state
then what was actually happening.
i really do just need to take a step back,quit trying to analyze everything
in those moments,let go a little and wait for the smoke to clear-
and then look back at things realistically instead of just a haze of
an emotional state or whatever I was in.