I'm not discounting that there may be chemical and hormonal changes taking place that may be contributing to some of your experiences. Likewise there is probably a connection to your history and some psychological issues at play. But there are also many things that are happening with the collective consciousness and even changes in the electro-magnetics of the cosmos that are effecting everyone! The rushes that you are talking about are being felt by a great many people... and especially to those that are highly sensitive to changes in energy!
If you watch all the videos in this thread... you may start to get an understanding of what I am talking about.
And I KNOW that behind the mask that you sometimes wear... you are very sensitive person and your hearts in the right place! Yes... without a doubt you can be a real horse's ass, lol! But I understand what lies beneath your 'bad boy' behavior. I know that you have experienced a great deal of pain... and the last thing that I'm gonna do is to add to it!
This whole notion of 'tough love' is a bunch of crap! It's generally given out by people who are quite angry and controlling themselves. They claim that they are just trying to help... when in fact this is a way for them to feel better about themselves. They will project their own issues on you... and then blame and condemn you... while they feel superior! Quite frankly some of the most disturbed and destructive people that I have ever met are those who are in the 'mental health' professions... although they certainly don't have a monopoly on this! This is also the case with many in the medical professions... and it's not only the allopaths!
But the one's that concern me the most are those well-intentioned folks who know little of what they're talking about. These days people think that if they've read a few self-help books or attended a few seminars or been in therapy themselves or even studied about natural health... that their automatically experts who are qualified to diagnose and tell others how they should live their lives! They'll practically shove their advice down your throat... even when you haven't asked for it! If you question them or disagree with them or don't follow their advice.... they become angry and judgmental... and then cast you aside! And if that weren't enough... then they'll tell you that you have no right to 'complain'... and try to make you feel guilty about asking for help! When once again you do try to reach out for help... they'll either ignore you or attempt to shut you up! And while this is all going on... instead of helping they are doing more harm!