I hope it is only a break, cause like everyone else said you are a big asset to curezone and you've helped me a lot. I'm sorry for rubbing out my posts the other day. It's all just drama on my behalf but if you really want to know what it was about it's basically that I am bipolar, sometimes I worry maybe functional pzichophrenic, but you know ... for example like in that COSMIC EARTHQUAKE thread below, after election day I wrote this negative tirade against Dubya and all this gloom and doom stuff about America, then I came to my senses and rubbed it out...but the thing for me is it works the other way too and when I swing negative I feel stupid about opening up and bubbling lovey dovey stuff.
I hope you're back by Christmas or early in the New Year but, you know, take as long as you need. One thing that really struck me from The Art of Happiness is how The Dalai Lama says "deep down mental development takes time. if someone says 'Oh through many years of hardship things have changed,' I can take that seriously. There's a greater likelihood of the changes being genuine and longlasting. If someone says, 'Oh within a short period, say two years, there has been a big change' I think that is unrealistic." And that has totally been my experience: seeing old friends today still facing off with the same old demons, though it may appear otherwise for just a short time. But I think the opposite is true and you've obviously become positive and that's there with you and won't change from some one month negative transit or whatever it is. Even though this collection of regrets I keep from my life 18 months ago still jump into my brain on an hourly basis I'm fundamentally optimistic about the future, and the coming spring. That's another really good book by the way if you haven't already read it. I'll try to read one of your book reccomendations in December.