I ready your(Uny's)response after getting up this morning, which was ten am. I felt lousy, groggy. I go back to sleep after I first wake up, feeling so tired; but it seems to make me feel even worse so I will try to get up early from now on. Anyway, I had a hard time reading your response, for various reasons which I won't go into now. But then later I had my second BM of the day and felt better. I get more depressed when I'm constipated and I think its especially important to be having those BM's now with taking the IF#2 and fasting, etc. So I was feeling stuck because I was literally stuck. But I also had a hard day yesterday, was going through a process of gettting back to work. I don't have a car so I had to take six buses and do a fair amount of walking. An activity day can stress my adrenals, but this was hard because the job wasn't working out and I got frustrated.
I am actually deeply in debt now, and am only buying the foods and tinctures with borrowed money, and money I am not sending to my bills for now. My credit has taken a hit and I owe an ex-girl friend $6000. As for helping others, I know what you mean and its good advice, but I feel more of a need to make some money and perhaps help some people like this ex who is out of work herself and I already owe her money. But I may be able to try to do some service to others at the same time. But I feel very stressed over not knowing how to pay the bills next month, etc. The job I was preparing for may not pay enough to survive on and I may be forced to take a different one which I know is very minimal also. But the reason I began juice fasting and the IP is because I was desparate. I think its desparation that draws people to the program, and in a way that is good because it gets you to do it. I felt that even if I used up what little money I had I may not be able to make it otherwise, as my health was declining and I did not want to go on anti-depressants.
I don't want to feel sorry for myself anymore. I want to take charge of my life and be productive. For me right now I wish I could find a way of making an income or develop something which will do this. I would love to work in healing others in some way, whether its natural healing or some type of emotional work. I originally went to college for this but after divorce I got derailed, long story. I feel that if I can get truly well I would like to find a way to help others do the same. Unfortunately I do need to earn now, as I would rather not just ignore my credit cards. I would like to pay them off and THEN IGNORE THOSE BANKS.
Uny, I will do anything you ask, as far as looking at the videos and writing about them, or anything else. I do want to make a contribution.