I am a Muslim and I do agree with you. I have schizoaffective disorder and I used zyprexa for long time. I just started using it again, but it has awful side effects. I always thought there MUST be a way to heal spritually, but I am weak and alone. Fear is always there.
Can you give specific info about what you did and what the outcomes were? Since I have the disorder, I sometimes doubt whether my prayers will be answered or not. Because, I cannot just calm down and feel secure. Prayers are answered only if we do believe that they will be accepted.
I would really like to know what you did and specifics of your story. We do believe in the same God.