Thanks for the advice and kind encouragement. I know that I can't change everything overnight, but that doesn't mean I don't want to.
It's hard for me to figure out what my biggest issue is. Is it sleep? Is it prospective? Why can't I eat healthy? Is eating and alcohol a diversion and can I face what is truly giving me a hard time?
Fasting literature speaks of healing and has helped me go in the right direction before. Like reset my taste buds in a way, and help me regularize my sleep schedule because I'm so exhausted by the end of the day and can't take in food to get me amped again. It gave me confidence faster than anything else has too...
I hope everyone understands a little bit of why I posted on this website.
I did shower and dress nicely, but I am still insecure about my skin and tried to hide my face. I also stayed up all night last night and slept during the day again and had those chicken fingers again... but no desert binges... one thing at a time right?