yes, spud, it is hard job to want none-material, or feeling and peace without a mind to think of a reason or of the thing you want to be that (old)desire of a feeling and it is anger energy that makes you want material and to feel for security, it is that repitition and forcing it to happen requeires bad energy. one need fresh new experience too and that is freedom. the best is peace the energy of which is a bliss that blow of the mind for thinking and we need love for it and no intruduction to fear to manipulate the others; all history is full of these shit. what you want is what you know already then you have to force it but truth of it or its flow is not the same, our life is spontaneaty, the feeling, but not the memory which wants to repeat the desire over and over and this system has grown too stale and completely imbalanced. no one want to waste time to unite the source of creativities, so reality is gone to false ideas, deceptions and just hopes and studies but not what the poor needs, all of us. the angry ones do not care, stucked at the old shit and money to hide it, he is even fooled with our too much demand, blindness, and stupidities.