"I tried this repenting and asking several times, and still nothing happened.
I decided then to find my own path in life, to form my own values and beliefs, and to love myself, and help myself."
Something did happen. You took responsibility for your actions. Just as God would want you to. See how love really works.
"I forgave myself for anything that I may have done wrong, and found that I didn't have to go through some god, or man , or anything else to have this connection."
Connection? That sounds like attachment-(religion)-belief. It seems you may have experienced God, yet you have an aversion to using that term.
Good for you. Looks like you received. Just like the Good book said you would. It just wasn't the materialistic way you thought it would happen. It was a creative way. This is why the Father is the Potter is the Pater is the All-Potent Power. It has to do with deciding the 0 or the 1 the x or the y, as opposed to actually being the Matter=Mother=Math=Money of the Material 0 and 1.