Is there anything we can tell you that will change your mind?
Surgery is a very drastic measure. Your life will not be any better after it. The pain may persist in the scar tissues; your digestion will be hampered for life.
Perhaps there is a much deeper and fundamental truth in all this you must learn...i.e. fundamentally changing your basic relationship to pain and emotions.
Isn't it worth a few more months of trying? This is your gallbladder! Isn't it worth doing your absolute very best to save your own organ? Whatever the case, and whatever you try, the knife can always wait.
Your body is in pain! LOVE IT! Help it heal! Don't cut it up with a knife!